It's almost that time...
Well... I guess it's finally that time in life. Well, almost that time, anyways. Time to go back to the thing which I quite literally ran from: School.
Yeah... I'm gonna register soon enough, I guess. Pssh... bad memories. Bad memories is all that schooling has for me. I mean, the High School years... fuuuuuuuck. Worst time I've had in my life. I mean, not only did I seem to be Charlie from Flowers for Algernon in that I was on a downward spiral in learning, but the kids at my school were total assholes. And I literally ran away from that fucked place around March or April.
I'm going to give it another go and try to do better than those years of loafing. I mean, I will do better. I'm going to do my best to actually graduate this time around. Still, I prolly won't show up for the graduation ceremony... too shy, I is.
And hell, maybe the people won't be so bad at the upgrading program. People have been telling me those guys are in it to upgrade and only to upgrade; everybody keeps to themselves. I guess I should believe this to be true. I mean, I guess a huge chunk of that fear I have is of the people.
But, because I'm gonna be following through with this, I'm gonna have to give up some hobbies. Fuck, they're more like obsessions.
I'm gonna boot Magic first. I mean, I'm getting nothing from it anymore. I don't get that "feel" when I play. Same thing with Yu-Gi-Oh!, I can't achieve that high... I just feel so down after a game. Pssshhh... not to mention I lose so fuckin' frequently nowadays. Maybe I feel this way because I'm lacking so much substance in life? Too much want? Needs are at a critical low?
So yes, the cards will slowly be going into storage... okay, this will be fucking difficult.
And money... I won't be spending as much. I need to save up, especially for Sept.
Internet... it's gonna go, too. An addiction, it is. But if it goes... I guess it's goodbye to quite a few friends I've made in the past few years.
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Dunno what to say about that.
Prolly won't follow through with this giving up thing all at once, though. Baby steps... baby steps... (psshh... "mouse steps", dammit!)
Well, if anybody wants to play the devil, now's the time.
I guess I have a lot of people to thank for smacking me into this direction, especially Kate and her figurative frying pan of doom, and my parents, who promised the would disown me if I didn't continue (eheh...).
Le sigh... it's all for the best...
Yeah... I'm gonna register soon enough, I guess. Pssh... bad memories. Bad memories is all that schooling has for me. I mean, the High School years... fuuuuuuuck. Worst time I've had in my life. I mean, not only did I seem to be Charlie from Flowers for Algernon in that I was on a downward spiral in learning, but the kids at my school were total assholes. And I literally ran away from that fucked place around March or April.
I'm going to give it another go and try to do better than those years of loafing. I mean, I will do better. I'm going to do my best to actually graduate this time around. Still, I prolly won't show up for the graduation ceremony... too shy, I is.
And hell, maybe the people won't be so bad at the upgrading program. People have been telling me those guys are in it to upgrade and only to upgrade; everybody keeps to themselves. I guess I should believe this to be true. I mean, I guess a huge chunk of that fear I have is of the people.
But, because I'm gonna be following through with this, I'm gonna have to give up some hobbies. Fuck, they're more like obsessions.
I'm gonna boot Magic first. I mean, I'm getting nothing from it anymore. I don't get that "feel" when I play. Same thing with Yu-Gi-Oh!, I can't achieve that high... I just feel so down after a game. Pssshhh... not to mention I lose so fuckin' frequently nowadays. Maybe I feel this way because I'm lacking so much substance in life? Too much want? Needs are at a critical low?
So yes, the cards will slowly be going into storage... okay, this will be fucking difficult.
And money... I won't be spending as much. I need to save up, especially for Sept.
Internet... it's gonna go, too. An addiction, it is. But if it goes... I guess it's goodbye to quite a few friends I've made in the past few years.
...
...
...
Dunno what to say about that.
Prolly won't follow through with this giving up thing all at once, though. Baby steps... baby steps... (psshh... "mouse steps", dammit!)
Well, if anybody wants to play the devil, now's the time.
I guess I have a lot of people to thank for smacking me into this direction, especially Kate and her figurative frying pan of doom, and my parents, who promised the would disown me if I didn't continue (eheh...).
Le sigh... it's all for the best...