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the wedding was good even though everyone there hates mom, becca and i and maintained a four foot perimeter around us at the reception, we just kept making each other laugh (the three of us were easily the rowdiest people there because we figured they already hate us, we might as well have some fun) and drink beer and screwdrivers and everytime we'd catch a dirty look, we'd cheers and say 'fuck 'em!!', it was our drunken motto of the night. i will post pictures as soon as i can! and i have bright red hair now!
i have to go back to toronto tomorrow! i don't really want to but i do because i know that the sooner i go back, the quicker the month will pass by and then october will be here and it will be time to move back home!! i'm still unsure about what i want to do in january...i'm thinking about taking a bartending course between now and then at NSCC so i can make some money and save for a car. my mom is considering buying herself a new car and keeping the crv for me which would be really nice but if that happens, i want to be able to pay some amount for it and pay my own insurance too.
my parents are also looking to buy a house for my sister and i to live in because it would be cheaper rent for becca and better for my parents since they'll take care of all that for me while i'm in school and it just makes more sense to pay it back to themselves and end up with a house fully paid off down the road rather than paying someone else rent and ending up with a stack of receipts. i'm kind of up in the air with this one though. on the plus side, becca, zack and i will have a house in our names eventually that we can do whatever we want with, and it will be cheaper for my parents in the long run. also, theres been talk of greg, corey and i moving out together and my parents don't care who else rents as long as they pay. on the minus side, i REALY really really don't want to live with my sister. really really. and i know that seems like a small price to pay but i can't stand her and shes back with her asshole boyfriend who i can't even stand to look at and the place is going to smell like marijuana and cat piss and my sister is just a bitch. and also, i really like not having anyone to answer to and regardless of what anyone says, if i'm living with my older sister, she is going to automatically take it upon herself to act as my caregiver and i can't stand that shit after pretty much being on my own and making my own rules for about a year. i guess we'll see how this all works out. logically, i know what is best for everyone else involved but at the same time, i really enjoy being sane.
being home is so good for me. toronto is just not right for me, it completely sucked all the life out of me and who knows, maybe i'll end up back there one day but now is definitely not the time. i could go on a big rant about how much i dislike it but knowing me, tomorrow it won't be so bad. in any case, nova scotia is ALWAYS good and i don't want to live in a city that i hate some days and don't mind other days. also, i have been thinking about lots of stuff lately, lots of good stuff that needs to be thought about, mainly about ben and i and also a bit about other relationships/friendships too and i don't really want to share but i've come to come conclusions and i feel very thankful and emotionally healthy lately.
i have to go back to toronto tomorrow! i don't really want to but i do because i know that the sooner i go back, the quicker the month will pass by and then october will be here and it will be time to move back home!! i'm still unsure about what i want to do in january...i'm thinking about taking a bartending course between now and then at NSCC so i can make some money and save for a car. my mom is considering buying herself a new car and keeping the crv for me which would be really nice but if that happens, i want to be able to pay some amount for it and pay my own insurance too.
my parents are also looking to buy a house for my sister and i to live in because it would be cheaper rent for becca and better for my parents since they'll take care of all that for me while i'm in school and it just makes more sense to pay it back to themselves and end up with a house fully paid off down the road rather than paying someone else rent and ending up with a stack of receipts. i'm kind of up in the air with this one though. on the plus side, becca, zack and i will have a house in our names eventually that we can do whatever we want with, and it will be cheaper for my parents in the long run. also, theres been talk of greg, corey and i moving out together and my parents don't care who else rents as long as they pay. on the minus side, i REALY really really don't want to live with my sister. really really. and i know that seems like a small price to pay but i can't stand her and shes back with her asshole boyfriend who i can't even stand to look at and the place is going to smell like marijuana and cat piss and my sister is just a bitch. and also, i really like not having anyone to answer to and regardless of what anyone says, if i'm living with my older sister, she is going to automatically take it upon herself to act as my caregiver and i can't stand that shit after pretty much being on my own and making my own rules for about a year. i guess we'll see how this all works out. logically, i know what is best for everyone else involved but at the same time, i really enjoy being sane.
being home is so good for me. toronto is just not right for me, it completely sucked all the life out of me and who knows, maybe i'll end up back there one day but now is definitely not the time. i could go on a big rant about how much i dislike it but knowing me, tomorrow it won't be so bad. in any case, nova scotia is ALWAYS good and i don't want to live in a city that i hate some days and don't mind other days. also, i have been thinking about lots of stuff lately, lots of good stuff that needs to be thought about, mainly about ben and i and also a bit about other relationships/friendships too and i don't really want to share but i've come to come conclusions and i feel very thankful and emotionally healthy lately.