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Today is "Singing at the synagogue" day. Some good friends of mine get together once a month to sing just for fun. It's really good therapy but after the upset last night I very nearly decided not to go, and if I had to make my own way I probably wouldn't, but I get collected and dropped home again so I don't have to brave the chaos of public transport.
Adding to the stress is the Psych evaluation, after that failed yesterday I'm trying again today, but, like a chump, I've managed to book THAT at the same time. I should be able to find a quiet corner to take a call and hopefully it won't take too long.
I'm also concerned that it's one of our occasional "Share a meal" sessions, and I don't really have anything to "share". pot noodle, or microwave meals isn't really what's required. My lack of forward planning means that I've failed to prepare anything and I don't have anything suitable in the cupboards. I now don't have time to buy anything (if I had any funds to spare anyway), so there's another reason that people can call me a "scrounger". I try to play fair, and pay what I can when I can, and the people that run the group understand and accept me on those terms, but it does make me feel guilty and uncomfortable.
Adding to the stress is the Psych evaluation, after that failed yesterday I'm trying again today, but, like a chump, I've managed to book THAT at the same time. I should be able to find a quiet corner to take a call and hopefully it won't take too long.
I'm also concerned that it's one of our occasional "Share a meal" sessions, and I don't really have anything to "share". pot noodle, or microwave meals isn't really what's required. My lack of forward planning means that I've failed to prepare anything and I don't have anything suitable in the cupboards. I now don't have time to buy anything (if I had any funds to spare anyway), so there's another reason that people can call me a "scrounger". I try to play fair, and pay what I can when I can, and the people that run the group understand and accept me on those terms, but it does make me feel guilty and uncomfortable.