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Apparently, posting my thoughts and opinions, frustrations and upsets here in a public forum has caused some upset. I'm told that my last post is "disrespectful". Maybe; but it is a reasonable description of the facts as I understand them.
I do in fact have a great deal of respect for my parents, and I do understand that they are in a difficult position. They are retired, or very nearly so and still supporting a chile and two households, I do realise that makes things difficult for them. After all it can hardly be easy for them having a child who is such an obvious failure. I am well aware that in the eyes of the world I am a lazy wastrel. Sponging off the state, and now the state have cut me off I'm scrounging off my parents. Yes, I know very well what a failure people think I am, and I also realise that "finding my parents difficult to TALK to" naturally makes me a bad person. Of course that also means that posting MY thoughts and opinions on MY journal, just compounds my crime by demonstrating how ungrateful and disrespectful I am.
At the end of the day, this journal is ABOUT ME, and it's MAIN purpose is to help me keep a record of MY thoughts and feelings. Allowing other people to read it is a secondary consideration, and one that I may reconsider if I continue to receive hostile comments. Maybe some people will see something of how I feel and why. Perhaps some will find comfort in knowing that they are not the only people having these kind of problems. Or am I deluded and merely attention seeking.
You may draw your own conclusions.
I do in fact have a great deal of respect for my parents, and I do understand that they are in a difficult position. They are retired, or very nearly so and still supporting a chile and two households, I do realise that makes things difficult for them. After all it can hardly be easy for them having a child who is such an obvious failure. I am well aware that in the eyes of the world I am a lazy wastrel. Sponging off the state, and now the state have cut me off I'm scrounging off my parents. Yes, I know very well what a failure people think I am, and I also realise that "finding my parents difficult to TALK to" naturally makes me a bad person. Of course that also means that posting MY thoughts and opinions on MY journal, just compounds my crime by demonstrating how ungrateful and disrespectful I am.
At the end of the day, this journal is ABOUT ME, and it's MAIN purpose is to help me keep a record of MY thoughts and feelings. Allowing other people to read it is a secondary consideration, and one that I may reconsider if I continue to receive hostile comments. Maybe some people will see something of how I feel and why. Perhaps some will find comfort in knowing that they are not the only people having these kind of problems. Or am I deluded and merely attention seeking.
You may draw your own conclusions.