WHEN TV REFLECTS REALITY
So, a few weeks ago, I was watching an episode of "New Girl", which is this comedy starring Zooey Deschanel, who really is the only reason why I began watching in the first place.
Anyway, this episode revolved around Nick Miller, who is Jess's (Zooey) roomate, and his discovery of a lump on his throat area that he needed to check out. So his friends (Jess's other roomates) freak out thinking he has cancer and question why he doesn't seem to be as worried as they are and why he doesn't want to go get it checked out. Then, Jess nags at him to do something and "live his life like his last", which Nick then gets fed up at and gives this speech of how he doesn't like to move until he's certain of the outcome, and that's why he's a 30 year old law school dropout whose a bartender and hasn't done anything with his life.
And then it hit me. I am exactly like him. I've never done anything with my life because I don't move. I'm scared to move. There's a comfort in the familiar and it frightens me to move ahead into the unfamiliar. Unambiguity is my mortal enemy.
So now you're thinking, "That's brilliant, Laura. You found out what's holding you back, you know you're problem. You can fix it! Woohoo".
Well, tough. That's easier said than done. In the end, Nick Miller runs into the cold ocean in the middle of the night stark naked and spends the night on the beach with his friends and then goes to the clinic and it turns out that the growth is benign. Maybe I need to metaphorically jump into the cold ocean (since there is no such thing here in sunny Singapore) to be able to deal with the unknown.
What's the first step towards that though?
Anyway, this episode revolved around Nick Miller, who is Jess's (Zooey) roomate, and his discovery of a lump on his throat area that he needed to check out. So his friends (Jess's other roomates) freak out thinking he has cancer and question why he doesn't seem to be as worried as they are and why he doesn't want to go get it checked out. Then, Jess nags at him to do something and "live his life like his last", which Nick then gets fed up at and gives this speech of how he doesn't like to move until he's certain of the outcome, and that's why he's a 30 year old law school dropout whose a bartender and hasn't done anything with his life.
And then it hit me. I am exactly like him. I've never done anything with my life because I don't move. I'm scared to move. There's a comfort in the familiar and it frightens me to move ahead into the unfamiliar. Unambiguity is my mortal enemy.
So now you're thinking, "That's brilliant, Laura. You found out what's holding you back, you know you're problem. You can fix it! Woohoo".
Well, tough. That's easier said than done. In the end, Nick Miller runs into the cold ocean in the middle of the night stark naked and spends the night on the beach with his friends and then goes to the clinic and it turns out that the growth is benign. Maybe I need to metaphorically jump into the cold ocean (since there is no such thing here in sunny Singapore) to be able to deal with the unknown.
What's the first step towards that though?