I feel like I cant express my true feelings with out others feeling out of place or getting mad. Well I kind of feel that with everything. I guess I see things as not about me and how I feel just always about everyone else around me. That is just the type of person I am; right? I don't know. I feel weird and have been feeling this way for a while. ( Read more... )

I cant say how I feel with out others getting mad about it or feel that they are the reason for it or whatever everyone thinks so whatever. I am done feeling anything. I will stay to myself since I have been that way for so long now.

Okay so I think there is someone that thinks I am so not supposed to have someone special in my life. So what do I do; nothing I just keep going and go along with it.

Is that dumb?

You know even though I have been able to talk things out I still feel out of place. I dont know what it is; is it me? Does moving on consist of an automatic change or is it on over time kind of thing. Seems like there is so much going on that there is no time for anything else. I dont know how to feel. I feel extremely confused. Why? what? How? I ( Read more... )

So I finally got some talking off of my chest. It actually has helped me feel alot better!!! All I need now is how to understand men?

Well everyone, I am home from work today. Lucky me right? No, I am caughing a lot more so my guess is this stuff is coming loose. I am glad I went to the doc yesterday. It has really helped me out!!. I will be glad when this is all over with. I am not one that likes being sick. I tried going to work yesterday and it only made things worse. But that ( Read more... )

Since the last time I have written I feel much much much better. I have totally found my joy again; not that I have ever lost it. Anyways, I know that God has been working with me trying to get me through this I just have been ghaving a hard time. I am glad that things are begining to feel a bit better. I have just totally given everything to God ( Read more... )

Okay so you want good news...

Some time next year I dont know when I am getting a place of my own with my BFF. I am excited about it and I truely cant wait. I know it is time to get out on my own!!!

I have tired to talk about how I felt and how I feel like kicking myself becuase I was not brave enough to actually start talking to the guy at the hospital. Well neat less to say the farthest I got was, "umm he was not cute", see the thing is he was to me. Am I supposed to make sure that any guy that I talk to or want to talk about is pre approved ( Read more... )

Where oh where do I begin? The days go from long to short and then back again. Although each day holds something different I am looking for something new. I dont know what I am looking for but I know nothing can happen but by God giving the change. Change is good or so I have heard. I seen so much happen in my short life and I know there is more ( Read more... )