thee endd of cricket
so since that previous post below, he has ignored me for over a month. im not sure why, and i have been trying to deal with it the best i can, not to say ive been perfect, ive cried a few times. and i still miss him alot. but i went to therapy today and she made me come to terms with the fact that i knew i didnt want to be with him in the long run anyway and hes nothing i would ever want as a husband or father of my children. hes barely someone i want as a boyfriend. anyway, i still miss him and want to still keep in touch as friends atleast so i wrote him this message on myspace. i hope he reads this and takes it the right way and doesnt still ignore me. i have faith he understands me pretty well.
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what up baby boy,
im not sure why you've cut me off again, but im sure you have your reasons. i just thought id clear up some things, in hopes you'll take me out of time out. lol if your ignoring me because you think im trying to lock you down & be in something serious, that is the opposite of my intentions.
i think we both know we would never work in the long run as anything serious. i dont date guys who smoke pot (at all) or drink as heavily as you do, i also dont date guys who refuse to call me.
i agree with alot of the things you said about us too, including how im too young and dont want kids anytime soon. if you noticed, i never said anything to argue against that. i do disagree with your idea that i couldnt handle you or your anger, i grew up around violent men my whole life. if my friends heard you say that i cant control you, they would laugh. theyve seen me tame some psycho ass motherfuckers.
i also told you i didn't try to have a relationship, the truth is... ive known it wouldnt work, but i just love being around you regardless.
I feel really comfortable around you, and i care about you. so i didnt want to stop being in contact with you, friends or more than friends.
i know nothing lasts forever, & i enjoyed being with you so i kept it going, knowing your not what i want in a serious sense.
also, i wanted you to know i'm not some kind of whore who has sex with guys and barely knowing them. im not sure why i went that quick with you, but i regret it if it in some way made you lose respect for me. you're only the third person ive ever had sex with.
i told you i get attached, but i do with all people in general, i don't like getting to know people and then not even being friends with them in the end. i hate losing touch and burning bridges. any way, i do miss you and i hope we can be friends atleast and chill when im in town and stuff.
ps. i take back when i said i didnt like anchorman or old school... i just liked seeing your reaction to me not liking will ferrell, i would have gone with you to see semi-pro. oh and i love mcdonalds sweet tea, i was just pretending i didnt to give you a hard time. :)
-alii
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what up baby boy,
im not sure why you've cut me off again, but im sure you have your reasons. i just thought id clear up some things, in hopes you'll take me out of time out. lol if your ignoring me because you think im trying to lock you down & be in something serious, that is the opposite of my intentions.
i think we both know we would never work in the long run as anything serious. i dont date guys who smoke pot (at all) or drink as heavily as you do, i also dont date guys who refuse to call me.
i agree with alot of the things you said about us too, including how im too young and dont want kids anytime soon. if you noticed, i never said anything to argue against that. i do disagree with your idea that i couldnt handle you or your anger, i grew up around violent men my whole life. if my friends heard you say that i cant control you, they would laugh. theyve seen me tame some psycho ass motherfuckers.
i also told you i didn't try to have a relationship, the truth is... ive known it wouldnt work, but i just love being around you regardless.
I feel really comfortable around you, and i care about you. so i didnt want to stop being in contact with you, friends or more than friends.
i know nothing lasts forever, & i enjoyed being with you so i kept it going, knowing your not what i want in a serious sense.
also, i wanted you to know i'm not some kind of whore who has sex with guys and barely knowing them. im not sure why i went that quick with you, but i regret it if it in some way made you lose respect for me. you're only the third person ive ever had sex with.
i told you i get attached, but i do with all people in general, i don't like getting to know people and then not even being friends with them in the end. i hate losing touch and burning bridges. any way, i do miss you and i hope we can be friends atleast and chill when im in town and stuff.
ps. i take back when i said i didnt like anchorman or old school... i just liked seeing your reaction to me not liking will ferrell, i would have gone with you to see semi-pro. oh and i love mcdonalds sweet tea, i was just pretending i didnt to give you a hard time. :)
-alii