... Making the cut even deeper... (these wounds won't heal)
Nothing now. I guess I don't even care. I know I should address this with Haley first but why? I get the same response every time. Everytime now that I am with her, I find out about this guy she "is just friends with"... supposedly its done with. But why should I believe that, she didn't even confess to it the first time around. And I feel bad for snooping but I will not live this way, when I know there is something not right. I can feel it in my heart and in my bones. And everytime I found out something new, the worse it seems to be. It makes me sick. How do you love someone who feels there is a sexual tension between her and some other guy? How do you stop yourself from just walking away? And why should I? She talks about getting engaged, when I honestly don't think she is ready. Oh don't worry Haley, its not like these friends care, its not like any of them do.
So here I am finding this gross information will Haley sleeping next to me. God what do I do. Do I confront her here and now, do I ignore it, what???
Is it a big deal, I guess not, maybe its karma. Should I be worried?
I'm just so confused, "deliciously thin, definite sexual tension." they ring in my head like a gun shot in my heart. So what do you think LiveJournal? What do I do?
She obiviously is hiding these tiny secrets from me. But now I know how you feel or felt. What a better way to find out. Thanks for just telling me. Yes, I am being sarcastic. What other tiny secrets does she hide? One thing is for sure, if I see him... he's dead. No it won't make life better, no it won't make me happy, but I won't have to worry about the sexual tension. And I suppose its not his fault. So should I just kill her too? Does that solve problems? wow, that's a lot of blood on my hands... lol.
I had you all worked up.
Fuck this, the story ends here, today I find the Truth. I will make her tell me or this will be the end of the road. I will not lose three years of my life to some fucking piece of shit stoner. I will die before I do.
I don't feel that I know my girlfiend anymore, that connection of love. I don't feel the happiness between us. I don't feel the way I used to. She says that its just cause we are apart, but I can feel her growing away from me. Every time she tells me something, I don't hear the truth, I get suspicious, and fustrated. Doesn't she know that this is hard for me, doesn't she care, yet she insists on talking to him. She tells me one thing and then I found out that its the opposite. This whole time I worried that he would try to make a move on her when in fact it was her I should have been worried about. I confess to my act of dishonesty but I NEVER had feelings toward that person, and in all honesty is was a kiss, not passionate not romantic, a test. I can feel this horrible feeling inside and she tells me that I am taking it out of preportion, then I just feel that I am slowing going insane, because none of it made sense. I've been tormented this whole time because I suspected something, and she told me there was nothing, do you understand?! She has been lying to me, tormenting me! Fucking with my emotions, but does she realize, no, she just wants to look past, yet she cannot look past my own mistake.
She is laying next to me. my tormentor. My love. What would you do if you were me? How would you act? She makes me feel like a monster. Why would she do that to me?
So here I am finding this gross information will Haley sleeping next to me. God what do I do. Do I confront her here and now, do I ignore it, what???
Is it a big deal, I guess not, maybe its karma. Should I be worried?
I'm just so confused, "deliciously thin, definite sexual tension." they ring in my head like a gun shot in my heart. So what do you think LiveJournal? What do I do?
She obiviously is hiding these tiny secrets from me. But now I know how you feel or felt. What a better way to find out. Thanks for just telling me. Yes, I am being sarcastic. What other tiny secrets does she hide? One thing is for sure, if I see him... he's dead. No it won't make life better, no it won't make me happy, but I won't have to worry about the sexual tension. And I suppose its not his fault. So should I just kill her too? Does that solve problems? wow, that's a lot of blood on my hands... lol.
I had you all worked up.
Fuck this, the story ends here, today I find the Truth. I will make her tell me or this will be the end of the road. I will not lose three years of my life to some fucking piece of shit stoner. I will die before I do.
I don't feel that I know my girlfiend anymore, that connection of love. I don't feel the happiness between us. I don't feel the way I used to. She says that its just cause we are apart, but I can feel her growing away from me. Every time she tells me something, I don't hear the truth, I get suspicious, and fustrated. Doesn't she know that this is hard for me, doesn't she care, yet she insists on talking to him. She tells me one thing and then I found out that its the opposite. This whole time I worried that he would try to make a move on her when in fact it was her I should have been worried about. I confess to my act of dishonesty but I NEVER had feelings toward that person, and in all honesty is was a kiss, not passionate not romantic, a test. I can feel this horrible feeling inside and she tells me that I am taking it out of preportion, then I just feel that I am slowing going insane, because none of it made sense. I've been tormented this whole time because I suspected something, and she told me there was nothing, do you understand?! She has been lying to me, tormenting me! Fucking with my emotions, but does she realize, no, she just wants to look past, yet she cannot look past my own mistake.
She is laying next to me. my tormentor. My love. What would you do if you were me? How would you act? She makes me feel like a monster. Why would she do that to me?