Beauty in the eyes of the...
Bezjak damnit!
I finally, after twenty two years got tired of making half assed attempts to make myself look better 'cause I was worried about what OTHER people would think... and finally grew the balls to do it for MYSELF. Thanks to this, I've lost a huge amount of weight, can fit into size 12 jeans (I haven't done that since NINETH GRADE!) and I'm hoping to get lower! I also am letting my hair grow out, instead of cutting it to some 'fashionable' style. Hey, my long hair that reaches my arse is alot easier to manage.. with the added bonus of when I go grey I'll have AWESOME hair! Since... the wimenz in my family tend to go silver shiny gorgeous rather then just boring ol white/blue.
I've also spent the money to get rid of the yucky tea/coffee/cig stained teeth, since to me they are hideous and I'm tired of looking at that in the morning.
To top it off.. Damnit, I'll admit it, I got a bra stuffer so that both sides are balanced looking now. SO WHAT if it's false advertising, no one will ever find out, and it makes ME feel more self confident. Makes me think 'Oh they are looking at me 'cause they see something they like and hell if I don't love lookin' at it myself!' rather then 'Oh gods, where is my shawl, I need to pull it over my head and run out of here.
I'm dressing in the clothes I make, because I'm proud of it, Yeah there are some irregularities, but my aunt who's a proffessional said she was PROUD of me! PROUD OF ME! Because all that I've done I've painstakingly learned ON MY OWN! With a sewing machine pretty much as old as I am (It was my step mums) and she even taught me a few tricks and shortcuts, which is a HUGE deal to me since she is so busy with the store and the appartments and because every time I have asked her for tricks and new things in the past she told me 'No, you aren't ready, or really willing'.
And the clothes I wear that I don't make... store bought things, I used to feel dumpy and blah in them but now I feel like I'm hotter then one of those stick models. Hell if I am not! I have a body, I have curves, I have three kids and screw you if you don't like it. I'm looking and feeling the best about myself then I have in... EVER. No one can take that away from me!
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((Sorry all... I had to vent out my angry joy over being better then I have been in a while + Vain + ego tripping ))
I finally, after twenty two years got tired of making half assed attempts to make myself look better 'cause I was worried about what OTHER people would think... and finally grew the balls to do it for MYSELF. Thanks to this, I've lost a huge amount of weight, can fit into size 12 jeans (I haven't done that since NINETH GRADE!) and I'm hoping to get lower! I also am letting my hair grow out, instead of cutting it to some 'fashionable' style. Hey, my long hair that reaches my arse is alot easier to manage.. with the added bonus of when I go grey I'll have AWESOME hair! Since... the wimenz in my family tend to go silver shiny gorgeous rather then just boring ol white/blue.
I've also spent the money to get rid of the yucky tea/coffee/cig stained teeth, since to me they are hideous and I'm tired of looking at that in the morning.
To top it off.. Damnit, I'll admit it, I got a bra stuffer so that both sides are balanced looking now. SO WHAT if it's false advertising, no one will ever find out, and it makes ME feel more self confident. Makes me think 'Oh they are looking at me 'cause they see something they like and hell if I don't love lookin' at it myself!' rather then 'Oh gods, where is my shawl, I need to pull it over my head and run out of here.
I'm dressing in the clothes I make, because I'm proud of it, Yeah there are some irregularities, but my aunt who's a proffessional said she was PROUD of me! PROUD OF ME! Because all that I've done I've painstakingly learned ON MY OWN! With a sewing machine pretty much as old as I am (It was my step mums) and she even taught me a few tricks and shortcuts, which is a HUGE deal to me since she is so busy with the store and the appartments and because every time I have asked her for tricks and new things in the past she told me 'No, you aren't ready, or really willing'.
And the clothes I wear that I don't make... store bought things, I used to feel dumpy and blah in them but now I feel like I'm hotter then one of those stick models. Hell if I am not! I have a body, I have curves, I have three kids and screw you if you don't like it. I'm looking and feeling the best about myself then I have in... EVER. No one can take that away from me!
>=3
((Sorry all... I had to vent out my angry joy over being better then I have been in a while + Vain + ego tripping ))