i could be brave in your arms. <3
so i lied. and kpat is not back. kpat still sucks. but stuff happens. [if you can't tell, the match didn't go well.] my nerves were all messed up today. i could see my hands shaking and my heart was racing. i love how i fuck up the things that are important to me.
i've noticed how there are days and nights and periods of time that make life worth living. wednesday was one of those nights. i went to the mondon christmas concert and honestly did have an amazing time. when i walked in, i saw absolutely no one that i knew, but thank god, bwhite got up and i saw her. so i sat with her and joe through the whole concert. i found a buncha my band friends during intermission, and that made me happy. one of my friends cried during one of the songs that jazz choir sang. i think because it reminded her of her mom.... at the end of the concert, i was scrambling around to find a ride because mine fell through at the last minute. lets just say that someone ended up sitting on the floor of a car so i could get a ride home. fuuunn. i must say great job to the band, choir, and tech members who put the concert together. it was pretty awesome.
it's almost christmas. i'm kind of excited. kind of dreading it. might as well look on the bright side, he'll be here for half of the day.
first half is almost over already. it's really scary actually. i'm finally getting my feet back on the ground, feeling human again, and it's all going to be ripped out from under me when next half starts. new classes, new routines, softball soon enough. i know i'm going to have a really hard time next half with classes. and i know of about 2 people in my classes right about now. soo i'm obviously soo excited.. NOT.
but life is pretty good. you've gotta take it day by day right?
i've noticed how there are days and nights and periods of time that make life worth living. wednesday was one of those nights. i went to the mondon christmas concert and honestly did have an amazing time. when i walked in, i saw absolutely no one that i knew, but thank god, bwhite got up and i saw her. so i sat with her and joe through the whole concert. i found a buncha my band friends during intermission, and that made me happy. one of my friends cried during one of the songs that jazz choir sang. i think because it reminded her of her mom.... at the end of the concert, i was scrambling around to find a ride because mine fell through at the last minute. lets just say that someone ended up sitting on the floor of a car so i could get a ride home. fuuunn. i must say great job to the band, choir, and tech members who put the concert together. it was pretty awesome.
it's almost christmas. i'm kind of excited. kind of dreading it. might as well look on the bright side, he'll be here for half of the day.
first half is almost over already. it's really scary actually. i'm finally getting my feet back on the ground, feeling human again, and it's all going to be ripped out from under me when next half starts. new classes, new routines, softball soon enough. i know i'm going to have a really hard time next half with classes. and i know of about 2 people in my classes right about now. soo i'm obviously soo excited.. NOT.
but life is pretty good. you've gotta take it day by day right?