I'm not a coward, I've just never been tested

[thorne_scratch]

Who the fuck let me near a computer four years ago? Matter of fact, why are you still letting me near a computer? I've been rereading all my old things, journalling and fic writing both, and am generally mortified. I certainly violated some sort of unlimited italics license, not to mention the friggin' pretentiousness of busting out non-capitalized

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[turk_elena]

His name is Gizmo? :P

Oh, man... You think you're bad? My shit from only a couple of years ago is awful. I'm so glad most of it was lost... >.>;

[thorne_scratch]

It is! Although I also refer to him as "Get out of the way, dammit!" and "Who's my good boy?" He is not actually my dog. Our family is taking care of him for a friend until the friend finds housing which allows pets. But we've had him around since June, so I've gotten rather used to him.

I never let myself make editing or deleting decisions when I'm in such a destructive state of mind, but man, I was holding myself back last night.

[lazulisong]

You realise that eventually Zack and Reno are going to figure out a way to use Cloud's guilelessness as a weapon. They'll do somethng and run off to make Cloud face the consquences, secure in the knowledge that everybody knows that Cloud would never think up this shit on his own and yet they aren't around to actually BLAME.

"What did I tell you about leaving Strife holding the baby, Reno."

"Respectfully, sir, there was no infant."

[thorne_scratch]

Oh, they do that already. The words most guaranteed to send Cloud into a twitch are Zack saying, "Cloud, c'mere, I need you for a sec." By now, both Sephiroth and Tseng just know to instantly hand out a preemptive beating if either Zack or Reno gets a certain expression on their face. Or if either of them, you know, breathes.

[turk_elena]

(On an unrelated note. Your icon. Is <3.)

[zenkatsuo]

You know, I read your journal long before I ever got myself one and friended you. I'm quite sure it hasn't been four years or anything, the first entry I ever read from you was one in which Louise had been practising home-surgery and was bleeding all over the place. The phrase "(insert clown-king name here), the king of clowns is not amused" was used at some point.

I've been meaning to look it up sometime, just because I find it strange that I remember it so well. And I guess it was what made me keep reading. Weird and stalkery.

Also, bitter envy at you having dreamed of Neil Gaiman. Bitter, bitter envy. I'd totally trade all my Nicole Kidman dreams for just one of Neil Gaiman.

[thorne_scratch]

Really? Huh. How'd you find it? Oh God, I remember that day. Jarvo, King of Clowns. I should call Louise up on the phone and shriek that at her, and then ask her if she's sat on any x-acto knives lately. and you oughn't feel stalkery. it's only stalking if you're, you know, actively going through my garbage or something.

It was a totally awesome dream. I was very disappointed that I had to wake up.

[zenkatsuo]

Apparently I actually lied to you unwittingly. That wasn't even the first entry I read. Besides I'm thinking I read it from the pitas one and not here. I remember a lot of oysters being mentioned in almost every other entry. It was maybe early 2004 or something.

I have absolutely no idea how I found your journal. But yay.

[white_aster]

omgsofunny. Had to remind self NOT to bust out laughing in the middle of work.... ^____^

[thorne_scratch]

Glad you liked it! And, um, that you didn't get caught!

[akisawana]

I love your thoughts on Zack.

[thorne_scratch]

Thanks! I think we are both inordinately fond of Zack.

[akisawana]

But Zack is the coolest, so is it really a surprise?