maybe there is no happy ending.

[thorfurgenson]

Hell. the god fearing individuals motivation to do what he sees as morally right, but what if Hell grew into you. then what morals could you have if hell has taken you over... then your morals would be that of hell and you could never commit the actions of your god. Maybe trauma is lifes way of saying... i give up on you for now... i give up on you keeping hell out of you.. or maybe it is a test, let me open you up to the chance of hell overtaking you... lets see if you can resist. well i feel i may have let hell grow into me and i have failed that test. maybe life has given up on giving me what i want. If this is true then i don't deserve anything anymore(no wonder so much shit is happening).

I am Hell.
I am this soul... destroyed and mutilated till the power of life could no longer control my reality.
I am the lost forgotten dog in the story.. that the little boy will search for but never ever find.

Maybe there is no happy ending.