Saturday, Jan 14, 2012. Insomnia again.
A restless night, with bouts of insomnia. I try not to take my sleeping pills during the weekend. I feel like I get dependent on them for sleep, even though they are not addictive other than perhaps psychologically. Most weekends I sleep ok without them, because I don't usually have a set time to awake on Saturday and Sunday. So it doesn't matter if I don't fall asleep very quickly. But last night, even though I fell asleep pretty quickly, I was constantly waking up. Finally around 4am I just decided to get up and surf the internet.
Charlie lie's in intensive care, unconscious, lungs no longer functioning, facing what I call the threshold into eternity. His wife isn't ready to let him pass away even though the doctors told her the very best they could hope for would be for Charlie to remain on a respirator, in a nursing home, for the rest of his life. If case you don't know, a respirator is a breathing machine, that pumps oxygen through a tube down the throat, into the lungs. Because of this tube a person can not talk. Think about it. Never talking again, laying in a bed, with a machine keeping you breathing, in a nursing home facility. Now I am more sure than ever when Charlie wrote the word "die" on a piece of paper last week, he was telling his wife and son to let him pass away. His wife has mild dementia, so we don't know if she is remembering, or even how long she is remembering, what the doctors are telling her. Her son may have to step in soon. But I don't know what the legal ramifications are in this case. I don't know if Charlie had a "living" will made? Both Mark and I have one, along with our Last Wills of Testament. But I think I listed my older brother as the sole decision maker in regards to turning off my life support, should I ever be put on life support. If I remember correctly I didn't want that burden to be left solely with Mark. I didn't want my Mom to have to make the decision. But I know my brother would consult with my family and of course he would deal very closely with Mark before making such a decision. However, I better review my will and living will this weekend to make sure I am remembering correctly how I have it worded.
Just Say'in.
Charlie lie's in intensive care, unconscious, lungs no longer functioning, facing what I call the threshold into eternity. His wife isn't ready to let him pass away even though the doctors told her the very best they could hope for would be for Charlie to remain on a respirator, in a nursing home, for the rest of his life. If case you don't know, a respirator is a breathing machine, that pumps oxygen through a tube down the throat, into the lungs. Because of this tube a person can not talk. Think about it. Never talking again, laying in a bed, with a machine keeping you breathing, in a nursing home facility. Now I am more sure than ever when Charlie wrote the word "die" on a piece of paper last week, he was telling his wife and son to let him pass away. His wife has mild dementia, so we don't know if she is remembering, or even how long she is remembering, what the doctors are telling her. Her son may have to step in soon. But I don't know what the legal ramifications are in this case. I don't know if Charlie had a "living" will made? Both Mark and I have one, along with our Last Wills of Testament. But I think I listed my older brother as the sole decision maker in regards to turning off my life support, should I ever be put on life support. If I remember correctly I didn't want that burden to be left solely with Mark. I didn't want my Mom to have to make the decision. But I know my brother would consult with my family and of course he would deal very closely with Mark before making such a decision. However, I better review my will and living will this weekend to make sure I am remembering correctly how I have it worded.
Just Say'in.