Pairing: Suho x Kris
Genre: Drama/Romance
Number of Words: 859 words
For a prompt from exopromptmeme: Basically make a Meteor Garden!AU with Dao Ming Si as Kris and Suho as Shan Cai
Scene is from this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdCCxZQaCEg PS: I am sorry for my bad writing, I can’t seem to write decently this days ;A;
I didn’t know what I was doing. But I was sure I had to do something to save my friends, their family, and my family. It was the only right thing to do. After all, they don’t deserve to be dragged on this kind of mess I created.
The mess I wanted. The mess I loved. The mess made me happy.
Tonight, I would end this mess, go back to my life, my ordinary life without Wu Yi Fan.
Wu Yi Fan.
Wu Yi Fan who I hated so much back then. He was such an asshole, throwing himself around, expecting everyone to actually respect him. He was such an asshole.
Wu Yi Fan who I have learned to care for. Who I have learned to listen to. Who I have learned to live for.
Wu Yi Fan who made me happy.
Wu Yi Fan who made me feel loved even if the world was against us. Even if we were really made to destruct right from the start. Even if we were destined to live as like those stars in the sky, near but actually a far.
His mother was right, I was like a persistent weed, and he was the sky. He was never made to be reached by my blades, he was never made to go down and touch the ground. He was meant to be there, together with the birds, the sun, the clouds, and everything pretty, while I am going to be stuck here, in my dirty ground and wait to be trampled and cut down.
Or get washed away by the rain, just like now.
Today was supposed to be one of the best days of my life. Yifan and I were supposed to go to the amusement park and celebrate our first month being together. He hated the amusement park, he hated how they are packed, the kids running about, and the rides but for some reason, he agreed to my decision right away yesterday. I guess his love was stronger than his fears.
I guess my love was not stronger than my fears.
I don’t know what I am doing. Why am I standing in this rain, soaking me to the core?
Rain, I guess you want to wash me to the core. Wash from me everything that I felt this past few months. Remove from me the memories, the sweet loving memories of me and Yifan. Leave to me nothing. Leave me with nothing to hold on. Wash and drain with me everything, because I have nothing to live for now.
“Junmyeon!”
One last look.
“Go with me inside, what the hell are you doing here standing in the midst of this storm! You’ll get sick!”
One last hold.
“I can’t.”
Looking up and staring in to his eyes was one of the most painful things I had to do that night.
“I am leaving your house tonight Wu Yi Fan.”
“What?! Why are you leaving? Didn’t we have a date tonight? Remember how you bargained me staying with my family, and I agreed just as long as we stayed together Suho? Why are you doing this?”
“I did.”
“Then why are you leaving? Don’t you want this? I thought you did! You told me you did!”
“I wanted to start and be in a happy relationship with you Yifan. I really did.”
“Are you not happy with me Junmyeon? If you weren’t happy with me, you should have said so, I know I should have treated you better. I know sometimes I am such an asshole, but I can change I can be be-“
“It’s not you Yifan. It was never you, it was always me. Always. Me.”
It has always been me.
“ I didn’t know that together with you and I being happy, people would suffer. People who I care for, people who I love, people who matter so much to me. I can’t stand seeing them crying.”
I can’t stand seeing you cry either. I can’t stand seeing you so hurt, confused, and broken. I can’t look at you, knowing, it was me who did it to you, that it was my fault.
“I have made up my mind to not see you again, Wu Yifan.”
“Junmyeon.”
I am sorry, Yifan. I can’t look back now, Yifan. I know looking back at you would make me throw everything I had just said. You were the only thing that matters to me right now, but I had to let you go. I will face the world with an empty soul, without you.
“Have you ever loved me?”
“Tell me if you ever loved me” he asked, voice hoarse from keeping in his tears.
“I have never loved you. If I did, I would never leave you like this.”
Rain, never stop and wash away my tears. Wash away the pain I am feeling, and leave me without a memory of this night. Drain me, drain me with feelings. Leave me, leave me empty because this is what I deserve.
“Since you say no, I would believe you.”
Leave me empty, because this is what I deserve.