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i wish i wasnt a nice person. i wish i could be hateful. i wish i could be an asshole. i wish i didnt care about anything or anyone. but im not that, i cant be that, and i couldnt even pretend to be if i tried.
i dont deserve to hurt. i really dont. ive went through absolute hell for over 2 months now and you cant even talk to me on the phone. you tell me were never going to be friends, even though you said that's what you wanted. do you know what you want? i dont think you have a damn clue. how the hell can you just throw away 2 and a half years? you promised me forever, we talked about marriage, i trusted you with everything and gave you every inch of me -- mind, body, and soul. and after a handful of fights and couple bad days, you throw it all away.
2 and a half years and all i have to show for it is a broken heart. im fucking losing my mind and you dont even give a damn. why do i still have any love for you, because you sure as hell dont deserve it.
i dont deserve to hurt. i really dont. ive went through absolute hell for over 2 months now and you cant even talk to me on the phone. you tell me were never going to be friends, even though you said that's what you wanted. do you know what you want? i dont think you have a damn clue. how the hell can you just throw away 2 and a half years? you promised me forever, we talked about marriage, i trusted you with everything and gave you every inch of me -- mind, body, and soul. and after a handful of fights and couple bad days, you throw it all away.
2 and a half years and all i have to show for it is a broken heart. im fucking losing my mind and you dont even give a damn. why do i still have any love for you, because you sure as hell dont deserve it.