oh man
i really did have fun tonight. i really have been having fun. im really glad i had a heart to heart, and im really glad i didnt cry in front of anyone. im really glad my medicine is working, even though i think im experiencing some side effects. im really glad josh and dylan are going with me to see winds of plague. im really glad im going to see unearth, and btbam with art.
im still straight edge and im going to stay that way. no circumstances, person, place, or thing will keep me from staying that way. i dont act like im holier than thou because ive chose that for myself, i just am. i dont have any desire to drink or smoke or intoxicate myself in anyway. im me.
even though im having fun and even though im smiling and laughing, i do miss him very much. i still love him with all of my heart and wish that things were different. im still holding on to hope for a future for us. i just realize that its out my hands, and time will have to take its course.
im still straight edge and im going to stay that way. no circumstances, person, place, or thing will keep me from staying that way. i dont act like im holier than thou because ive chose that for myself, i just am. i dont have any desire to drink or smoke or intoxicate myself in anyway. im me.
even though im having fun and even though im smiling and laughing, i do miss him very much. i still love him with all of my heart and wish that things were different. im still holding on to hope for a future for us. i just realize that its out my hands, and time will have to take its course.