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ive been trying my best to have as much fun as possible and be as happy as i can be. its been really hard. i keep wanting to pick up the phone and just call him. i dont though. i really really want to but i dont. i shouldnt, and id only be hurting myself more.
i really do miss him though. and i really would like nothing more than to spend some time alone with him. i dont know what is going to happen with him, with my life, but i just really want things to turn out good. i want there to be a happy ending. it hard believing that could even be possible now, especially with the distance and lack of communication, but stranger things have happened.
so yeah ive been trying to have fun and keep myself occupied. ive had some pretty interesting times and met some pretty interesting people. it helps being around people and laughing and having fun. but when im alone, i face the facts. nothing can fill that void left open. its like a whole part of me is missing.
damnit i didnt want this to be a sad entry.
oh well.
check out my new pics on myspace.
fun times, and no drugs involved!
i really do miss him though. and i really would like nothing more than to spend some time alone with him. i dont know what is going to happen with him, with my life, but i just really want things to turn out good. i want there to be a happy ending. it hard believing that could even be possible now, especially with the distance and lack of communication, but stranger things have happened.
so yeah ive been trying to have fun and keep myself occupied. ive had some pretty interesting times and met some pretty interesting people. it helps being around people and laughing and having fun. but when im alone, i face the facts. nothing can fill that void left open. its like a whole part of me is missing.
damnit i didnt want this to be a sad entry.
oh well.
check out my new pics on myspace.
fun times, and no drugs involved!