last night
was the worst night of my life. i lost the one person in the whole world that meant everything to me and he doesnt want anything to do with me anymore. he says he doesnt want this anymore and he doesnt have any faith in anything working for us ever again. im alone in my desire for a relationship with him, for a future with him, and it kills me.
because i know he still loves me, and i know he still cares. even if it isnt the same as before.
im so lost. i dont know what to do or where to go. im so confused. all i want to do is see him and hug him and kiss him again, but i fear ill never get to do that. ill see him, but it wont be the same. he's intentionally trying to push me away, trying to cut me out of his life. he keeps telling himself there is no chance for us, and if he keeps telling himself that he'll keep believing it. i wish he would just stop, clear his mind, and think.
im going to give him a week to think. then im going to go get my stuff. thats going to be hard. ill give him some more time after that. ill give him all the time he needs. ill give him whatever, ill do whatever it takes. i just want him back. i just want to be his girlfriend, his best friend, his everything. i want to be that because he has been my everything for over 2 years.
if anyone has any insight, its welcome.
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because i know he still loves me, and i know he still cares. even if it isnt the same as before.
im so lost. i dont know what to do or where to go. im so confused. all i want to do is see him and hug him and kiss him again, but i fear ill never get to do that. ill see him, but it wont be the same. he's intentionally trying to push me away, trying to cut me out of his life. he keeps telling himself there is no chance for us, and if he keeps telling himself that he'll keep believing it. i wish he would just stop, clear his mind, and think.
im going to give him a week to think. then im going to go get my stuff. thats going to be hard. ill give him some more time after that. ill give him all the time he needs. ill give him whatever, ill do whatever it takes. i just want him back. i just want to be his girlfriend, his best friend, his everything. i want to be that because he has been my everything for over 2 years.
if anyone has any insight, its welcome.
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