i'll be in the corner looking through the cracks of anything just to see you
i guess i've been in one of those moods lately where i feel like the person i'm dating isn't as devoted as i am. but i'm over it now. i came to realization that the only reason i care so much is because i feel like i'm doing all the working and making this work, and in previous relationships, it was usually the other person doing the work and i was just kinda sitting on my ass. so i guess it's karma teaching me a lesson on how not to be an asshole. either that, or i just have shitluck when it comes to relationships. oh well, i care for jess a lot, i really do but it's not worth stressing out about. the way i see it, if its work outs, good, if it doesn't, then it's just another girl and another relationship. it's not like it's going to be the last one.
anyways, other that that, today wasn't that bad. i got suspended for missing a saturday school, which means my vacation starts early. haha. i kinda hate being absent so much and wish i wasn't but i have so there's nothing i can do about it now. i don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow though. i'll probably get up early and go somewhere, just so i don't have to sit in this room til 3:30 doing nothing but chain smoking and watching dawson's creek. lol. that's all stephanie's fault by the way. speaking of which, she graduates from the air force soon and i think she may come back here for a while. that would be pretty awesome if she did. it was good hearing from her last week. it's been two months sense we actually talked, outside of her sending me letters. speaking of which, i think i should get started on the letter i'm writing her. but i am happy she's actually doing something with her life, even if i disagree on what she's doing. now i understand why her parents didn't want her dating me. lol. mr.anarchy dating ms.america just didn't work. lol.
oh, gina gave me her leopard print cd case! YESSS! lol. dude, i was so happy because i've been wanting that cd case sense i first saw it and every time i went over gina's house, i would try to steal it. lol. but now, i have it, so i don't have to try anymore.
ummm, i think i might be either hanging out with graham tonight or going to thelement. not much to do on a wednesday night. last wednesday was better though (SOULFLY!!!! haha). i think i'll give ashley a call later on and see if she's going.
(SIDE-NOTE FOR VIEWERS ACTUALLY INTERESTED : Apparently quite a few girls like me and that's not going over to well with jess. well, i have no interest in dating anyone else while i'm dating jess. so... yeah.)
well i'm done for now. yadda.
peace out boy scout
anyways, other that that, today wasn't that bad. i got suspended for missing a saturday school, which means my vacation starts early. haha. i kinda hate being absent so much and wish i wasn't but i have so there's nothing i can do about it now. i don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow though. i'll probably get up early and go somewhere, just so i don't have to sit in this room til 3:30 doing nothing but chain smoking and watching dawson's creek. lol. that's all stephanie's fault by the way. speaking of which, she graduates from the air force soon and i think she may come back here for a while. that would be pretty awesome if she did. it was good hearing from her last week. it's been two months sense we actually talked, outside of her sending me letters. speaking of which, i think i should get started on the letter i'm writing her. but i am happy she's actually doing something with her life, even if i disagree on what she's doing. now i understand why her parents didn't want her dating me. lol. mr.anarchy dating ms.america just didn't work. lol.
oh, gina gave me her leopard print cd case! YESSS! lol. dude, i was so happy because i've been wanting that cd case sense i first saw it and every time i went over gina's house, i would try to steal it. lol. but now, i have it, so i don't have to try anymore.
ummm, i think i might be either hanging out with graham tonight or going to thelement. not much to do on a wednesday night. last wednesday was better though (SOULFLY!!!! haha). i think i'll give ashley a call later on and see if she's going.
(SIDE-NOTE FOR VIEWERS ACTUALLY INTERESTED : Apparently quite a few girls like me and that's not going over to well with jess. well, i have no interest in dating anyone else while i'm dating jess. so... yeah.)
well i'm done for now. yadda.
peace out boy scout