We're jsut two lost souls swimmin' in a fish bowlllllll
In all my ranting about HORSESHIT i forgot to tlk about what i did yesterday/today. Cuz i'll freakin forget by tmorrow...
Yesterday:
Er...picked up Joe around 12ish. Got Age. JETTEDDDDDDDdd to the movies and met up with Lizz n Paulina(?) and sum other chick. Saw Mean Girls. Age was havin a fit about sitting too close to the screen. she was about to go sit in the back by herself but she pussed out lol aw. the movie was fuckin GREAT omg. Janice? ::quiver:: Fuckin' hott. Screw blonde chicks in mini skirts. Not my type. Janice was all grunged out and shit. Mmmm yum. Er, they went to get coffee but i ahd to go home. Towards nitetime i started mood dropping. Told you. Cant be happy for too long w/o questioning wuts gonna turn out wrong. FUCKIN SHIT. but alls good. RoRo cheered me rite up =o) Thanks munky!
today!
I was dying to wear my pinstripes. so i did! woohoo! stopped at Barnes *&* Noble. Got his bookie. Went to get him so we could eat but he was still in the shower. Started readin his book while i waited cuz i forgot lestat in the car ::slouch:: His dad was sayin sumn about the pink star on Hobbes' hat :;giggle:: abusseeeeee caseeee haaaaaa =oX
We passed Limited Too on the way to get food. Stopped in there to see if i fit into anything but i wasnt likin their shizz >_< i got chicken n fries n hushiepuppies. and a frostie that he let me suck on for a good 10 minutes b4 he informed me that ur sposta EAT IT WITH A SPOOn ::kicks his shoe:: Some guy dropped his food on the floor =o( the lady who was cleanin it was talkin to us. she definitly thinks he's a meanie haha! Anycrap, we took off. I made him go in stores with me ::evil snicker:: i wanted undies but i didnt like their shit. Went into Foxeh to look for skirts!!!! and found this denim one with "suspenders" ::rolls eyes:; and it looks UBER CUTE AND I WANT IT! er at least i thought it looked cute ::frumps:: and then i tried on these 2 dresses. Hobbes dont like no frill so he was all BAH NO! to the black one ::slouch:: it was so cute. and then this chick gave me a white dress to try on. it took forever to figure out how to get it on. Oh man. But it looked okay except it was too long and i had my clippie thong on so it was allshowin thru the dress. but eh. i had no money to buy anything so we left :;cries for skirt:: i wantttttt. passed Saima as we were leaving. i figured i'd say hi so she's not all "::nudge:: i saw u with sum guy the other day" and makes a big fucking deal out of it. I checked my weight ::swallows all the hysterical tears i want to cry:: i dont understand it. ::bites lip:: im not gonna start. We left. but stopped in hot topic cuz i wanted those screw earings since i took my old ones out. they didnt have it. ewnt in torrid. skinny girl in fat ppl store :;shakes head:: so wrong. left. i jsut wnted to fall asleep so badly. so so badly. the weight thing plus other shit this morning ruined my mood a bit and i just needed to fall asleep. but i couldnt cuz i had to pick up the kids. i didnt wanna leave =o( so boo. i was late gettin them but i called so they wouldnt worry. and then at home Ali took off and went to the store w/o telling me. cuz he was mad that i told him to not cross the street w/o looking first. he likes to just run across like no one's gonna hit him. and i get so scared that one of these days he's gonna learn the hard way. and plus him jsut leaving the house isnt good either. yeah the store is RIGHT across the street. but a lot can happen in those 30 seconds it takes to get there. ::shiver:: i'm gonna be such a protective mother. well no i lie. more like worried shitless. i cant even begin to imagine something happening to ali or naseem without wanting to cry as if it happened already. underneith all the hate and the resentfulness i loev them like my own children. god only knows what it'll be like when i have my own...
I've been thinking. I'm gonna start writing essays on shit. I do a better job at gettin my point across like that. and i have so much to say about so much. i just dont kno how to. so yeah. when schools done and over with i'm gonna spend my summer reading and writing. but for my own enjoyment for once. i miss being able to do that...
Yesterday:
Er...picked up Joe around 12ish. Got Age. JETTEDDDDDDDdd to the movies and met up with Lizz n Paulina(?) and sum other chick. Saw Mean Girls. Age was havin a fit about sitting too close to the screen. she was about to go sit in the back by herself but she pussed out lol aw. the movie was fuckin GREAT omg. Janice? ::quiver:: Fuckin' hott. Screw blonde chicks in mini skirts. Not my type. Janice was all grunged out and shit. Mmmm yum. Er, they went to get coffee but i ahd to go home. Towards nitetime i started mood dropping. Told you. Cant be happy for too long w/o questioning wuts gonna turn out wrong. FUCKIN SHIT. but alls good. RoRo cheered me rite up =o) Thanks munky!
today!
I was dying to wear my pinstripes. so i did! woohoo! stopped at Barnes *&* Noble. Got his bookie. Went to get him so we could eat but he was still in the shower. Started readin his book while i waited cuz i forgot lestat in the car ::slouch:: His dad was sayin sumn about the pink star on Hobbes' hat :;giggle:: abusseeeeee caseeee haaaaaa =oX
We passed Limited Too on the way to get food. Stopped in there to see if i fit into anything but i wasnt likin their shizz >_< i got chicken n fries n hushiepuppies. and a frostie that he let me suck on for a good 10 minutes b4 he informed me that ur sposta EAT IT WITH A SPOOn ::kicks his shoe:: Some guy dropped his food on the floor =o( the lady who was cleanin it was talkin to us. she definitly thinks he's a meanie haha! Anycrap, we took off. I made him go in stores with me ::evil snicker:: i wanted undies but i didnt like their shit. Went into Foxeh to look for skirts!!!! and found this denim one with "suspenders" ::rolls eyes:; and it looks UBER CUTE AND I WANT IT! er at least i thought it looked cute ::frumps:: and then i tried on these 2 dresses. Hobbes dont like no frill so he was all BAH NO! to the black one ::slouch:: it was so cute. and then this chick gave me a white dress to try on. it took forever to figure out how to get it on. Oh man. But it looked okay except it was too long and i had my clippie thong on so it was allshowin thru the dress. but eh. i had no money to buy anything so we left :;cries for skirt:: i wantttttt. passed Saima as we were leaving. i figured i'd say hi so she's not all "::nudge:: i saw u with sum guy the other day" and makes a big fucking deal out of it. I checked my weight ::swallows all the hysterical tears i want to cry:: i dont understand it. ::bites lip:: im not gonna start. We left. but stopped in hot topic cuz i wanted those screw earings since i took my old ones out. they didnt have it. ewnt in torrid. skinny girl in fat ppl store :;shakes head:: so wrong. left. i jsut wnted to fall asleep so badly. so so badly. the weight thing plus other shit this morning ruined my mood a bit and i just needed to fall asleep. but i couldnt cuz i had to pick up the kids. i didnt wanna leave =o( so boo. i was late gettin them but i called so they wouldnt worry. and then at home Ali took off and went to the store w/o telling me. cuz he was mad that i told him to not cross the street w/o looking first. he likes to just run across like no one's gonna hit him. and i get so scared that one of these days he's gonna learn the hard way. and plus him jsut leaving the house isnt good either. yeah the store is RIGHT across the street. but a lot can happen in those 30 seconds it takes to get there. ::shiver:: i'm gonna be such a protective mother. well no i lie. more like worried shitless. i cant even begin to imagine something happening to ali or naseem without wanting to cry as if it happened already. underneith all the hate and the resentfulness i loev them like my own children. god only knows what it'll be like when i have my own...
I've been thinking. I'm gonna start writing essays on shit. I do a better job at gettin my point across like that. and i have so much to say about so much. i just dont kno how to. so yeah. when schools done and over with i'm gonna spend my summer reading and writing. but for my own enjoyment for once. i miss being able to do that...