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i talk to him.. really talked to him. about. the whole situation. and how he felt and stuff.. it just sucks knowing certain things.. like how i was trying to fall for matt again to avoid thinking of him .. and how you only really get once chance and it doesnt matter who ruins it..it's never the same... i dont know. i still cant understand how knowing someone for as little as we did made me feel things that i havent felt since mason.. and it's weird how both of those relationships were alike..
i am glad we're talking again..and things are odd, but that's normal.. am i stupid for still feeling something for him? .. i told someone he was a mistake..but i lied. .. hm..but i hear things about him..and the way he is...and once you lost mu trust it's rather impossible to regain it.... tomorrow will be ever so fun now =/
i hate school
and this is just temparary. i'm sure i'll be fine and over it soon. i'm like that now. i get over things so fast because dwelling on it for too long is just stupid and only makes your life worse. he was a good guy. he made a big mistake. and that is that. matt is going to be down tomorrow. chances are he will make me feel better and forget about alot of things. it's cool how he can do that for a few seconds. but still. i dont know about him either.
tis like i lost trust in the entire male sex
i am glad we're talking again..and things are odd, but that's normal.. am i stupid for still feeling something for him? .. i told someone he was a mistake..but i lied. .. hm..but i hear things about him..and the way he is...and once you lost mu trust it's rather impossible to regain it.... tomorrow will be ever so fun now =/
i hate school
and this is just temparary. i'm sure i'll be fine and over it soon. i'm like that now. i get over things so fast because dwelling on it for too long is just stupid and only makes your life worse. he was a good guy. he made a big mistake. and that is that. matt is going to be down tomorrow. chances are he will make me feel better and forget about alot of things. it's cool how he can do that for a few seconds. but still. i dont know about him either.
tis like i lost trust in the entire male sex