and if i get to be 102 i just dont think i'll ever get over you.

[thiskeptsecret]

i guess i am getting pretty pathetic. more and more im listening to songs that i can completely relate to. i listen to the lyrics and i think in my head, this is my life, this is my story. its getting sad how many songs are adding to the list and how long i have been just waiting for him to say hi. he was so perfect in my eyes. its horrible how much he matters to me. my friends i guess dont really get it. they have there own boys to think about. their own troubles. and thats okay just it feels like everything between me and him was actually bullshit now thats what he thinks. its like there was never anything there sense now im the only one who thinks of the memories, sense i guess he threw them all away becasue he needed space for his new gf. god. i have nuthing against her i swear i dont. but it feels great to have one of my best friends hate her. gives me a reason to call her a bitch. but then again i only know the bad about her. she could be nice right? god...i cannot get over the fact that he's not in my life anymore. im horrible. i just want to go back in time back to a life where i had a small group of friends and we never did anything but they all knew or pretened or whatever i was going with, where there was no drama and it was extremly easy to avoid people. now it seems i go places i have..fun..but everywhere i turn there is a person i should be avoiding. a person i need to stand up too. a person i should be telling the truth too. the whole truth...

today i woke up and bought a shiny purse. i cleaned and did laundry. oh what fun. kelly is spending the night at my madres and is leaving early tomorrow morning. i guess im stuck with my sister. my camerea needs batteries and i want to cut my hair shorter. i got bangs today though..

and the wind blow away_______come back to me<33