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im so bored. and when im bored, i think. a lot. i hate thinking. its not even productive thinking. its imgoingtodriveyoucrazyuntilyoucry thinking. and i hate it. i got my hair cut. its cute. i think. its just too hot and im too lazy or tired or not in the mood to try and make it cute. besides, i have no one to impress.
buffalo made me angry. im kind of sure why, but im not sure that i want to talk about it. ive been like that lately. i havent been very confrontational at all.
i want to write in my journal journal, but what would i write? thats the kind of mood im in. i want to sit with a close friend and talk for hours about anything and everything possible. i dont have anyone like that anymore.(well i think i do with one person at least..) i want to have that. i think that i was hoping that my trip to buffalo would help me realize that it is possible for me to have good friends. honestly, good friends. and i think that could be a possibility, if i stayed there for longer than a week. or if i went alone, and really got to spend time with people..get to know them better.
i think im going crazy.
i think that im not going to like being home so much.
i think that im not going to like having so much time to think.
buffalo made me angry. im kind of sure why, but im not sure that i want to talk about it. ive been like that lately. i havent been very confrontational at all.
i want to write in my journal journal, but what would i write? thats the kind of mood im in. i want to sit with a close friend and talk for hours about anything and everything possible. i dont have anyone like that anymore.(well i think i do with one person at least..) i want to have that. i think that i was hoping that my trip to buffalo would help me realize that it is possible for me to have good friends. honestly, good friends. and i think that could be a possibility, if i stayed there for longer than a week. or if i went alone, and really got to spend time with people..get to know them better.
i think im going crazy.
i think that im not going to like being home so much.
i think that im not going to like having so much time to think.