Arrghhhhh!!!!!!
I wish i could sleep forever and never wake. I want to shut my brain off and not think anymore. Its like my enemy always telling me how bad i am and that im not good enough. I blame other people for making me feel like shit but its not them its me. Its myself when i look in the mirror and see this useless waste of human flesh. Why do i do this to myself? I need to just stop. But its so much easier to say than do. I always think people hate me even if they dont. And people dont want to be around me. Why? i dont know. Im usually not like this. Dammit. Its 4am and i need sleep badly.