two new ones, about old things.
(This one is finished.)
You've Finally Had Enough
So Ill ask for my glass,
Not that kind of glass,
Baby,
You know nothing fills this space,
Thats where this whole problem started,
In the first place,
I hope for a little bit of lights reflection.
This glass,
A rolled up dollar bill,
A sweat filled sheet,
Baby,
Thats all I need.
Yes darling,
I said it!
You do NOT belong in the mist,
Of my daily cravings,
At least not anymore,
Now that Ive just been made comfortable,
Being weak,
Now that I am happy,
Dancing in a sea of snow.
Roses
Dreams
Blue eyes
Fuck it all,
I no longer believe in love.
So Ill ask for my glass,
Its right there,
Right in front of your pretty little face,
I know you can see it,
Dont deny me the one thing I need,
Youve already denied me what I want.
May I have my fucking glass,
PLEASE?!
No!!
YOU CALM DOWN!
My glass,
PLEASE!!
Dont make me scream.
May I have my glass,
Ive said please.
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(This one is not.)
That's What It's Like
So you wonder what its like,
As I lay shivering in the dark,
Refusing myself the only thing,
That I believe I need,
Its dark.
I try to eat,
Forced,
By my mothers hand,
Food is disgusting,
Tasteless,
It brings nothing but vomiting,
And more shivering,
Its cold,
It is so dark.
That is what its like,
Its frightening when Im alone,
With nothing but him at the other end,
Thats what its like,
I try to stand,
And it hurts,
It hurts in my gut,
It hurts the back of my knees,
I fall to my bed,
Without waiting for my mother to return,
With the sheets she changes every three hours,
You know so much shivering,
Causes so much sweat,
The mattress is cold,
And it is so dark.
It is so dark,
Thats what its like,
My mother at my side,
Darling hes on the other line,
But darling you have to drink this,
Please drink this.
My mother sitting there,
With the wrong glass,
A straw,
Instead of a dollar,
What is it like?!
Even water brings the vomit,
The sweat,
Wet sheats,
More shivering,
Its cold,
Its dark,
Its so fucking dark.
Thats what its like.