love and pain go hand in hand
My thought process today was on a much higher scale than usual, i spent a majority of my day in deep thought about what it is im searching for right now.. i thought i wanted a good relationship, a strong one, with someone that would make it last, but then i realized theres so many things i want to work on by myself first, before commiting my time to someone new. I think I need to encourage myself to make goals and try to acheive them. I'm really just looking for some more strong friend relationships, it would be nice to say i have alot of friends that i can actually "trust" besides the few that i have now (they are g-r-e-a-t though) I just wish i was that person that everyone loved that everyone could look at and say man shes a really nice person i really like how shes not two-faced or hypocritical, but i have a long way from being there (although i really try not to be the things that i see in others and despise), i know that im not perfect and thats not the exact goal im after. I'm after improving myself to being much better of a person than I am.. the potential is there.. but i need to work to get it to the level in which i consider success...*