So I'm Grounded....again. this time until june 1st (at the earliest..)

[thisisme_26]

so my dad has been really gay lately but wow. i never thought i wouldve ever heard the things i heard from my parents tonight. ever. tonight i went to jasons becaue it was his suprise party. i was a little bored and then meagan called me saying that matt murray was having a party. i felt like going. since i had a car and i could do things like that. well i got there and i really wanted to spend the night at meagans because i hadnt been able to in a long time.  so i was at matts and everyone was taking shots and i was like ok well i have to drive. im only taking one. thats all. im gonna be responsible. and soo i went back to jasons to call my parents and ask if i could spend the night at meagans....and my dad was like no...and i was like why not and he wouldnt answer me at all and was just like blah blah blah im gay and just like....ughh we got in the biggest fight ever. so basically i went into hysterics because he was being such an asshole over absolutely nothing. and he was like "YOU CANT SPEND THE NIGHT AT HER HOUSE AND I WANT YOU TO CALL ME FROM OUR HOUSE IN 15 MINUTES!" meaning i had to go home right then... and i dropped meagan back off at matts because she didnt deserve to have a shitty night just because i was having one.... i cried the whole entire way there and then i went home and just plopped into bed and cried and cried and cried. so i was supposed to call my dad when he got home and i did and i called him and said he was and asshole and i told him that i hate him and that he makes me miserable and blah blah blah....then they get home and they were shouting at me...and i felt like i did ntohing wrong because all i ever did in the first place was ask if i could spend the night at meagans and when they said no....i ased them why not and they wouldnt answer me....soo like then they smelled alcohal on my breath even though i had only had one shot and i was perfectly fine and they were like your soo stupid how could you be that stupid you were drinking and driving your such a fucking idiot. and then they threatened to call the cops on me and my mom slapped me twice across the face and my dad hit me once. and then i went hysterical about being depressed and how they have no respect for me because my friend just died and ive been really upset and then they started going on about how ugly and shitty my room was and my dad was kicking my stuff around saying he was gonna burn all my stuff because my room was such a piece of shit. and then my mom grabs my arm and is like "we're going to the hospital right now. i seriously think something is wrong with you. look at your face its so ugly. you must be on drugs why are you acting like this." and they were seriously gonna take me to the hospital. because they thought i was on drugs! i mean wow lets be honost now. what kind of a fucking parent says that shit. and then they were like lets talk about why your depressed and so we sat down and i started telling them and they were like that happens to everyone big deal and they were just completely ignoring everything i was saying. so i just stopped talking and went up to my room and wrote a song. and its pretty good i think... ( you mgiht all think its gay but whatever...)    it will be in my next live jorunal...

so yeah i lost my car, my license, my phone, my computer privalages, i cant go to sadies, i cant do anything on 4-20,  i cant do anything at all....because i asked to spend the night at meagsn house...and my parents said no...and i woudlnt let it go because they wouldnt tell me why. pretty dumb dont you think?? i guess the biggest fights can still come from the littlest things. just watch...my parents will pretend everythings fine tomorrow....just like they always do.

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