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My life is sprialing right now. Me and racheal decided to take a break for a little while. This is the hardest thing she has ever asked me to do. i know its prolly for the best and well hopefully it will stregthen are realanship, but its so hard. I just wish i could go back and change alot of things. Go back and treat her the way i should of been treating her. i love racheal so much. God this is so hard. Everything reminds me of her. Im really nervous about everything also. Im scared she is going to meet some one much better than me. it terrorafies me. i need racheal more than i ever did now. i feel like im alone again. like i used to be. its been 2 days and im already just laying in bed waiting for my phone to ring. and when it does and its not her, its so dissapointing.
This has helped me realize more things than ever. It making me want to grow up. I need to stop being a boy and become a man. I need to learn to control my temper and not get so frustrated all the time, and learn to apprecicate people in the same ways that they do to you. i need to be able to show racheal how much i love her. i dont know how to do that. She is all i am alive for anymore it seems like. i just need her back. im sorry im typing all this to you guys. it just used to help me get everything out. I just hope that me and racheal get back really soon. me and her made a deal, we talk on the phone every day and were going to see each other once a week. i really hope she sticks to this cause I really need her. it sucks, if i ever felt like this when we were together, i wouldnt even say anything, she would just confort me. But know i just have these 4 walls that stair back with eyes that can appear into my heart and bring everything to the surface. i have never creid this much in my whole life. and there is no one for me to cry to. This is just so depressing. That i cant have her when i need her most. Well ill stop wasteing every ones time.
Baby if u read this i want you to know that i love you more now then i ever could before. i miss you so much.
This has helped me realize more things than ever. It making me want to grow up. I need to stop being a boy and become a man. I need to learn to control my temper and not get so frustrated all the time, and learn to apprecicate people in the same ways that they do to you. i need to be able to show racheal how much i love her. i dont know how to do that. She is all i am alive for anymore it seems like. i just need her back. im sorry im typing all this to you guys. it just used to help me get everything out. I just hope that me and racheal get back really soon. me and her made a deal, we talk on the phone every day and were going to see each other once a week. i really hope she sticks to this cause I really need her. it sucks, if i ever felt like this when we were together, i wouldnt even say anything, she would just confort me. But know i just have these 4 walls that stair back with eyes that can appear into my heart and bring everything to the surface. i have never creid this much in my whole life. and there is no one for me to cry to. This is just so depressing. That i cant have her when i need her most. Well ill stop wasteing every ones time.
Baby if u read this i want you to know that i love you more now then i ever could before. i miss you so much.