explosions in the sky

[thisfalseart]

im drowning living breathing thinking in music that penetrates my brain shes right next to me and ive never felt so farther away from anyone in my life the notes rain down i feel it on my hands in my heart touching me touching my soul i see something in the light i think it might be god but i think it might not be it might just be my wish for something more important than me i just want to have that feeling again the more i dwell on it the more i think that itll never happen again that ive lost my chance and my heart forever it makes me tear up the sound is surrounding me now i think it wants me to join it i wish i could just enter it and live there forever without my own feelings only the soul of the song and what i hear my obsession is growing i know i need to stop but as soon as i leave i will be empty i cant handle it cant handle thinking about it what i am still doing in this position why am i here

im looking for something to save me from obscurity and oblivion i fear it wont come