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it's almost the end of march. it's almost over. this is almost over. when i think about leaving, i feel so many different emotions. i'm excited and happy that i get to be somewhere new, but at the same time, i'm so scared and worried about the future. i have so much for me here, so many things i don't want to leave, it's tragic. i've never been so sure and unsure about something at the same time as i do right now.
in related news, i've been accepted to three of the six schools i've applied to. that's fifty percent. now i just have to hear from the other three, which, ironically, are my top three. i should be leaving to go to my mom's soon, but my sister doesn't want to go. she has been with my dad for the past three weeks straight. it's sad, really, divorce, i mean. it fucks up your family so much. i can't even imagine what it'll be like for alex and lys when i leave. my loves goes out to them.
this is real. this is it. it pervades my body every single moment i breathe. if they can only be so lucky as to know.
in related news, i've been accepted to three of the six schools i've applied to. that's fifty percent. now i just have to hear from the other three, which, ironically, are my top three. i should be leaving to go to my mom's soon, but my sister doesn't want to go. she has been with my dad for the past three weeks straight. it's sad, really, divorce, i mean. it fucks up your family so much. i can't even imagine what it'll be like for alex and lys when i leave. my loves goes out to them.
this is real. this is it. it pervades my body every single moment i breathe. if they can only be so lucky as to know.