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haven't updated in a while. i'm tired, and i should be sleeping, but i have to update.
max died.
it hit me like a train. my dad told me over the phone on thursday while i was at catilin's with her and eric. the shock of it lasted about five seconds, and then i started crying like a baby. i can't think about it. it makes me sad. and just now, when i came home, i saw my brother for the first time in three days, and we just stood and cried. there was nothing i could say to comfort him, because i felt the same way he did. we missed max. it just makes you realize how much you take some things for granted. i cried again today, but for other stupid reasons that i already discussed with the person who was there. i'm sorry for that, again. i'm so stupid, being so emotional for no plain reason. ah, but the discussion was good i think. yes, very good.
tomorrow is jam-packed. festival from 7 to 5. work from 6p.m. to 2a.m. it's gonna suck, but at least my new pal dylan covered my sunday shift. thank goodness.
i'm tired.
max died.
it hit me like a train. my dad told me over the phone on thursday while i was at catilin's with her and eric. the shock of it lasted about five seconds, and then i started crying like a baby. i can't think about it. it makes me sad. and just now, when i came home, i saw my brother for the first time in three days, and we just stood and cried. there was nothing i could say to comfort him, because i felt the same way he did. we missed max. it just makes you realize how much you take some things for granted. i cried again today, but for other stupid reasons that i already discussed with the person who was there. i'm sorry for that, again. i'm so stupid, being so emotional for no plain reason. ah, but the discussion was good i think. yes, very good.
tomorrow is jam-packed. festival from 7 to 5. work from 6p.m. to 2a.m. it's gonna suck, but at least my new pal dylan covered my sunday shift. thank goodness.
i'm tired.