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I feel weird and depressed. All self-confidence I once had has now dimenished. I was doing so well too. I'm sick of writing about my depression but I guess I need to write it somewhere. My mom is a bitch and that is all that can be said about her. I've said it before and I'm gonna say it again...MY MOM IS THE REASON MY LIFE IS SOO FUCKED UP. Most reasons for my depression I can't even verbalize or write but its there. if it weren't for my best friend Jennifer, who knows where I'd be right now. She has been one of the only people who won't blow me off for others and remained a true friend. I love you. I've gotten to the point where I don't even want to wake up in the morning. I try to tell myself that everything will be good today but I'm constantly faced with the reality that it won't. I hate writing these kind of entries... i feel so pathetic when I do. I need to go hide away for a long while and not face the world. I have so many insecurities its crazy. I dunno, just don't know...
* by the way- hello Tram, i love you.
* by the way- hello Tram, i love you.