a mess.
i don't recall when things got so complicated. jl is crying about how much he's in love with me. i'm infatuated with someone i hardly know and all i really want is for *fred to ask me to come to philadelphia and be with him. i want my life to progress to the next step and that is stupid because i'm in a job with no security. i have bills out the wazoo and family problems that i don't want to deal with because they aren't my problems.
i want my own life. i want my own family and my own future. and i want it to start happening because i am becoming impatient.
being in florida didn't make me sad - it only made me miss my father. and being in the carribean wasn't relaxing - it was a wake up and reminder of what i once wanted. being "home" is making me miserable.
i want my own life. i want my own family and my own future. and i want it to start happening because i am becoming impatient.
being in florida didn't make me sad - it only made me miss my father. and being in the carribean wasn't relaxing - it was a wake up and reminder of what i once wanted. being "home" is making me miserable.