Its a little bit funny, this feeling inside..

[this_isyoursong]

so uh k so my tonsils have been bringing out the WORST in me. i think these past 2 weeks have been crazy. ive still been sick and havent noticed. my tonsils blew up like crazy. so bad that i cant even swallow. i had my favorite dinner of all time tonight and i couldnt even swallow it. My mom took me to the doctors today (yes, i still go to a pediatritian), and as i watch every little kid in the waiting room, they take me first.. only because i was about to break down because i could hardly breath. i go into the waiting room and wait for about 15 minutes which seemed like a hr. My mom tried to make me feel better by talking to me but my throat was so sore that I obviously didn't want to talk. So the doctor came in, looked at my throat and asked me a few questions. Then, she gave me a strept test which turned out to be negative. When she came back to tell me about the strept test, she mentions that i have to go get tested for mono. I must be retarded or something because i was just sitting there and my mom says, "So I'm going to have to take her out of school tomorrow?" and she said yeah. so i ask, "Why do you ahve to take me out of school for just a test?" and the doctor said "Because we have to test your blood." Oh yeah.. then i lost it. I started bawling because i figured out that there are people who are scared of needles and people who are deathly phobic of them. and i am deathly phobic. Last week when the lady came to talk to us about the blood drive during health class, and she took out the needle, i cried just looking at it. One of my friends did the blood drive today in school and I started crying. And today of all things they tell me that i have to get a blood test tomorrow. And i dont have ANY time to prepare it. ITS JUST TOMORROWWfsjdka;fjlkj i came home in tears and i told my mom this is fucked up. Even though i think i do have mono because i am EXTREMELY tired and i want to go to sleep. But when you ahve mono, they test your blood every 2 weeks. Hopefulyl i can get over this fucking phobia of mine. because seriously this is fucking retarded.

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oh yeah good news! on the way to the doctors after school today, Your Song by Elton came on the radio today, and it made me SO happy. My mom let me blast it with the windows down ebcause it was SO nice out today. it made me smile :-)