(something no words can describe?)
151 lbs
I do hope to be down a pound or two tomorrow.
My weekly goal would have been reached. =)
These last few days were quite hard at first, but they're getting easier.
I really do love cooking, so I've been making things like deserts for them.
My sister has the biggest sweet tooth, wonderfully thin girl though,
loves my food.
She's lucky, to be so thin and eat so much...
It's alright, I haven't broken.
I am quite surprised and proud of myself at the same time.
I feel like Willy Wonka in ways (i just saw the movie with my family...)
Not eating lets me watch people's expressions when they take that first bite,
and something undescribable happens;
You eat to live, but you can tell when a certain richness is in the food,
Something beautiful and pure that satiates the normal.
However, for us,
Food will never satiate us.
We live by something more than food, something more wonderful
Something more loving and caring and miraculous and more filling
Than a mere meal could ever be-
beauty
and that, in itself
was the most thinspiration I've had in weeks.
TODAY'S COUNT:
- Glass of Orange Juice (110 cal.)
- Diet cokes, Jones soda (no cal.)
- Cup of fat-free Hot Cocoa (70 cal.)
I carried a microwaveable little tub-cup type thing of macaroni up to my room. And though I used to eat these like oxygen only a month ago, I didn't even touch it. I have a weakness for pizza, and today, pepperoni pizza sat on our kitchen table, and I realized that when I finally reach my first goal (120 lbs) that pizza will be the most delicious thing I've had in weeks. So, I decided I could wait.
Some days, I'll cry and cry and never feel pretty...
And although I don't feel pretty right now-
It's as close as I've ever gotten.