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even with mandy, this girl that is supposed to be my support through all this, I can't tell her everything. We are too alike, too competitive for this. I can't be completely open with her.
She is too untainted, and my heart feels heavy.
Adam and Kelly and Michelle don't understand, can't understand. I feel like I am on a different level, below or beside, I can't explain.
sometimes I think my heart is bleeding, but other times, I'm not sure if it's true.
I am just tired of secrets; I'd rather just lie the whole way out.
She is too untainted, and my heart feels heavy.
Adam and Kelly and Michelle don't understand, can't understand. I feel like I am on a different level, below or beside, I can't explain.
sometimes I think my heart is bleeding, but other times, I'm not sure if it's true.
I am just tired of secrets; I'd rather just lie the whole way out.