Jan 10, 2006 22:06
No negative comments, now.
Cheer up!
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Well, I've maintained a somewhat stable weight.
Terribly fat, but less than what I was before.
I'm ready for change.
I have a thing for this guy. Not love, nono. Just a thing. And he's sort of a challenge, you see. And I'm enjoying it, sort of.
However, I had an epiphany today;
How am I supposed to love someone else if I can't even love myself?
And in order to love myself, I have to be beautiful.
This will take away, but by March 1st, if everything goes to plan,
self-confidence is on the menu;
=)
I feel hopeful.
Please, God, whoever is up there, please don't let me fuck this chance with happiness up. I'm motivated and closer to my goal than I've ever been.
DON'T LET ME FUCK UP NOW.
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Plan until March 1st = starting tomorrow, a week after my 17th birthday.
3 week diet; 1 week stablize; 3 week diet again.
4 days a week workout - some kind - gym, if possible.
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WEEKLY SCHEDULE
wednesday - school, come home, cigarette break, water, homework, DPS center, gym, shower, finish up creative writing, sleep
thursday - school, band, home, cigarette break+gym (hopefully with mandy), shower, homework hardcore, sleep.
friday - school, home? cigarette break+gym with mandy hopefully, then hangout with people or whatever.
saturday - gym in the morning!