new year's
its a weird day. and not really much of a beginning to anything except for january. why now and not some other day? i make fun of it, i think about how resolutions are like those exercise bikes they're so often in league with, and still, i get sucked in. every year.
not making resolutions--i already know what that is, but thinking about the year behind and the year ahead.
for example, a year ago i was between odd jobs and living at my sister's house. this year i have my own cute apartment in bloomington and i'm teaching. am i happier? oh yes. still have this nagging need though. i want an office and a regular salary. i'd like i job i don't ever have to leave, unless i want to. i want to know where i'm going to be next year. i want a dog.
so, we'll see. i'm scared about the job thing right now, applying. its so much work and anxiety putting things together and then there's the interview thing which would be amazing if it happened and terrifying.
but i guess a year ago, i didn't know i'd be where i am now.
maybe it is kind of good to be reminded to think about this stuff.
not making resolutions--i already know what that is, but thinking about the year behind and the year ahead.
for example, a year ago i was between odd jobs and living at my sister's house. this year i have my own cute apartment in bloomington and i'm teaching. am i happier? oh yes. still have this nagging need though. i want an office and a regular salary. i'd like i job i don't ever have to leave, unless i want to. i want to know where i'm going to be next year. i want a dog.
so, we'll see. i'm scared about the job thing right now, applying. its so much work and anxiety putting things together and then there's the interview thing which would be amazing if it happened and terrifying.
but i guess a year ago, i didn't know i'd be where i am now.
maybe it is kind of good to be reminded to think about this stuff.