Can I sing about my Maker...
and have you not roll your eyes?
Can i weep about my Savior and the way he died?
I've been pretty stressed lately. If you know me then you know that me being stressed = doing absolutely nothing about, and pretending everything is ok. I sleep a LOT now, i go to bed at like 10:30 (or so, depending on when Speedy leaves) and i sleep until like 9 or 10 (depending on school times). I have sooo much crap i have to take care of, but i don't. I have so many bills I need to work more to pay off, but i don't. I have to get medical insurance, but i don't. I NEED a new job i have got to go looking, but i don't. I need to clean this apartment and unpack, but i don't. I need to study and work on these 4 papers that,but i don't. I need to talk to people that need to know my secrets, but i'm scared, i think.
I need motivation, i need help, i need to be happy.
I don't talk to anyone anymore, not that i'm quiet, i just don't tell anyone anything that is really going on, i think maybe that's why i got on here. NO one reads this, so i think i'm safe. I'm not depressed (or if i am, it's way different than what i'm used to), i think i'm just hormonal, maybe those are the same sometimes.
I've given up on school. I'm graduating in May, not going to grad school, in a lot of debt due to loans and i'm gonna have a degree in nothing. There is always the option of auditioning for URTA (like D.H. really wants me to do, but i hate to be a disappointment and not do it), but i don't want to move away this summer it's just a really bad time for me. It's funny how the first opportunity i get, that i've been waiting to get for a LOOONG time, to get outta Alabama, i can't take it. It's ok, i'm not upset, i don't believe for a minute that i can make it as an actress. Just because UAH theatre isn't the best doesn't mean i'm good, it only means that there isn't much to compare to. Of course, he is a Grammy winner and worked in New York on tv shows or whatever, so that makes me feel good about myself, but still, i don't think it'll ever happen for real. I don't think they'd want someone like me, anyway, not in few months....
Ok, i have to go to the doctor...well the free one, anyway.
Can i weep about my Savior and the way he died?
I've been pretty stressed lately. If you know me then you know that me being stressed = doing absolutely nothing about, and pretending everything is ok. I sleep a LOT now, i go to bed at like 10:30 (or so, depending on when Speedy leaves) and i sleep until like 9 or 10 (depending on school times). I have sooo much crap i have to take care of, but i don't. I have so many bills I need to work more to pay off, but i don't. I have to get medical insurance, but i don't. I NEED a new job i have got to go looking, but i don't. I need to clean this apartment and unpack, but i don't. I need to study and work on these 4 papers that,but i don't. I need to talk to people that need to know my secrets, but i'm scared, i think.
I need motivation, i need help, i need to be happy.
I don't talk to anyone anymore, not that i'm quiet, i just don't tell anyone anything that is really going on, i think maybe that's why i got on here. NO one reads this, so i think i'm safe. I'm not depressed (or if i am, it's way different than what i'm used to), i think i'm just hormonal, maybe those are the same sometimes.
I've given up on school. I'm graduating in May, not going to grad school, in a lot of debt due to loans and i'm gonna have a degree in nothing. There is always the option of auditioning for URTA (like D.H. really wants me to do, but i hate to be a disappointment and not do it), but i don't want to move away this summer it's just a really bad time for me. It's funny how the first opportunity i get, that i've been waiting to get for a LOOONG time, to get outta Alabama, i can't take it. It's ok, i'm not upset, i don't believe for a minute that i can make it as an actress. Just because UAH theatre isn't the best doesn't mean i'm good, it only means that there isn't much to compare to. Of course, he is a Grammy winner and worked in New York on tv shows or whatever, so that makes me feel good about myself, but still, i don't think it'll ever happen for real. I don't think they'd want someone like me, anyway, not in few months....
Ok, i have to go to the doctor...well the free one, anyway.