i want a lover i dont have to love

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woAh i never seem to update much anymore. i think its because i have secret lives and i dont want anything to slip. no im kidding, i think.

-brad hates me
-gavin prolly does by now (o well)
-i miss arthur
-mac is outta town
-i miss jeanie like hell
-ive kinda not been answering keenans calls (not on purpose though)
-mom and i are getting along much better now
-i need to start on my flipping summer goals

*i need to watch napolean dynamite again, gAh!!*

lindsay:
i miss lindsay, even though i dont act like it...im a bad friend for never calling and after i dont call after a while i feel like im not alowd, like it will be awkward (most of the time it isnt). i dont wanna say that she lives far away is why i dont make an effort to hang out with her, i wanna say its because i only have two days off a week and the rest of the time i work. but ya know one of those days i should pick up the fucking phone and call her, but i never do. its my fault. i dont wanna ditch her anymore. its funny how i can say all this and know that i have to call her, but i never do anything about it! gAh. it prolly seems to her that all my other friends are more important..and thats the vibe im giving off so im letting her think that way...fricken geez!

alrighty. today i had to go to court for tristains custody hearing...lemme tell yAh. not fun!!