I find it kinda funny i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which im dieing are the best ive ever had!!

[thinlineofblood]

this is the only "public" entry and the last journal entry visible entry to ne1 for awhile or maybe even at all. i think i may be done with alot of things. i thought typing up the way i felt and all that other shit that people may start to understand me better since i dont talk about the way i feel but the only thing that that has done is cause

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[andromeda647]

what would you rather have... 50 fake friends who, like you said, only use you for cigarettes or another reason

OR

one or two TRUE friends, who have never done anything to betray you and you could trust them with your life?

[my_silent_cry_0]

It's almost impossible to find people who don't betray you at one point or another for any reason, big or small, it's human behavior.

[andromeda647]

It's a matter of perception. Little things wouldn't be called betrayal, probably just backstabbing or lying. And even if your true friends backstabbed you, if the relationship was strong in the first place, it'll be fixable. But see that's the thing..if you have a few true friends and one of them DOES betray you, your relationship should have been strong enough to move on past it. But if the same thing happened with a few of your fake friends, it's obvious you won't be friends anymore because there was never any real friendship in the first place. I mean, my brother always says I have no friends because I only have like 3 people I can actually say are my true friends, yet he just has all these fake friends and he thinks he's got the better end of it. And a "friend" isn't someone who sits there and lets you fuck up your organs and kill brain cells either, Andy. Your real friends should get mad every time you do that. The ones who do it with you or sit there and let you are the ones to watch out for.

[my_silent_cry_0]

yea... but you jsut said betrayal, and betrayal's betrayal whether you get over it in the end or not. I'm just stating my view on the subject.

[raynbow222]

'mad world' lyrics... awesome. that's a fav song of mine.

[brokenxfaeries]

I love you.