fucking ridiculous.
valentine's day
he called.
left a voicemail.
and i didnt hear from him again.
his last words, "i love you. always have and always will."
i took it pretty hard, considering i was alone on valentine's.
i still love him too, im just trying to pull away.
and if he still loved me, wouldnt he come to farmingdale telling me he misses me and needs me in his life?
wouldnt that be the thing to do?
instead of a goddamn voicemail?
i still think about him from time to time.
thinking about how it would be if he were still in my life.
i mean, even on saturday, 3 out of the 4 girls there (one being me) were on the phone with their boyfriends.
i sat there.
wondering what he could be doing and then i found myself in a daze.
sometimes i want to call.
text even.
just to see how he is.
but i know if i do, i will lose it.
i will sooo upset and probably even worse off than i am already.
whatever.
i dont know what i should do.
maybe ill call and leave a voicemail.
maybe thats what ill do.
GOD, I HATE THIS.
he called.
left a voicemail.
and i didnt hear from him again.
his last words, "i love you. always have and always will."
i took it pretty hard, considering i was alone on valentine's.
i still love him too, im just trying to pull away.
and if he still loved me, wouldnt he come to farmingdale telling me he misses me and needs me in his life?
wouldnt that be the thing to do?
instead of a goddamn voicemail?
i still think about him from time to time.
thinking about how it would be if he were still in my life.
i mean, even on saturday, 3 out of the 4 girls there (one being me) were on the phone with their boyfriends.
i sat there.
wondering what he could be doing and then i found myself in a daze.
sometimes i want to call.
text even.
just to see how he is.
but i know if i do, i will lose it.
i will sooo upset and probably even worse off than i am already.
whatever.
i dont know what i should do.
maybe ill call and leave a voicemail.
maybe thats what ill do.
GOD, I HATE THIS.