Revisiting myself ...
is something I probably don't do often enough, and may not do now, but I really should.
And when I say "revisiting" myself," I mean going back to things I've mentioned before and expanding on them, or explaining myself further.
It doesn't happen, I think, because I don't have a regular writing practice (think of this in the sense of a yoga practice). I have never developed a writing practice, per se, because up until about 10 years ago, I was a writer. I didn't have to practice it. It was just something I did all the time. It seemed impossible to get away from, in fact, however much I wanted to (and I did--I was tired of being an exploited creative person. At least that's how it felt to me.) I didn't want to write any more, and after a series of unfortunate events, I felt like I deserved not to write any more.
Now, I have moved so far away from writing all the time I want to reintroduce it into my life. Writing might become like working out, where I commit to doing it for a certain amount of time a certain number of hours a week. This is in contrast to waiting till I feel like it, or till I have something to say, but trying to channel it more. And I should probably develop a writing routine, and make lists of things I want to write about. Just testing, but this is not making me think ARGGGH! THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I WANT! so things have changed a bit.
As for Recent Things I Should Revisit, I nominate
1. Samantha Brick and beauty issues and tabloid treatment of women (although this is a lot of what my youngest sister writes about)
2. Race and appearance and beauty issues and how I think they are intertwined
3. Feminism and privilege
Although, honestly, I don't know what I would DO with any of these writings. But I'm not going to think about that right now, because it's not really the point.
In addition, I have to get serious about applying to grad school, so today I made a GRE account, though I haven't signed up for a test time. The last time I took the GRE was right after I graduated from college and I was embarrassed to have scored in the 96 %ile. But, this is ridiculous, right? I can still get into grad school with scores like that, right? Do I need to study? It's been so long ... but if I don't do well, I can just take it again, like the SAT? Pretty soon T will have to do all these things as well, so I should prepare myself. Though I have more time then I think because he repeated 7th grade, so even though he will be 15 in the summer, and has been doing a lot of 9th grade things because he's in the accelerated class, he is only really starting high school this fall.
I am just not going to get caught up in should I study? for the GREs and just go ahead and schedule a test time at some point over the summer. I am in fact, going to ignore all the distractions and what-should-I's and just do the practical scheduling things and THEN worry.
Speaking of beauty, on Tuesday I was next to Shalom Harlow (90s supermodel) in an exercise class and did not realize it. I just thought she was kind of pretty and a bit familiar-looking, with freakishly elongated limbs. I didn't know who she was until the instructor (a friend) texted me about it lol.
And when I say "revisiting" myself," I mean going back to things I've mentioned before and expanding on them, or explaining myself further.
It doesn't happen, I think, because I don't have a regular writing practice (think of this in the sense of a yoga practice). I have never developed a writing practice, per se, because up until about 10 years ago, I was a writer. I didn't have to practice it. It was just something I did all the time. It seemed impossible to get away from, in fact, however much I wanted to (and I did--I was tired of being an exploited creative person. At least that's how it felt to me.) I didn't want to write any more, and after a series of unfortunate events, I felt like I deserved not to write any more.
Now, I have moved so far away from writing all the time I want to reintroduce it into my life. Writing might become like working out, where I commit to doing it for a certain amount of time a certain number of hours a week. This is in contrast to waiting till I feel like it, or till I have something to say, but trying to channel it more. And I should probably develop a writing routine, and make lists of things I want to write about. Just testing, but this is not making me think ARGGGH! THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I WANT! so things have changed a bit.
As for Recent Things I Should Revisit, I nominate
1. Samantha Brick and beauty issues and tabloid treatment of women (although this is a lot of what my youngest sister writes about)
2. Race and appearance and beauty issues and how I think they are intertwined
3. Feminism and privilege
Although, honestly, I don't know what I would DO with any of these writings. But I'm not going to think about that right now, because it's not really the point.
In addition, I have to get serious about applying to grad school, so today I made a GRE account, though I haven't signed up for a test time. The last time I took the GRE was right after I graduated from college and I was embarrassed to have scored in the 96 %ile. But, this is ridiculous, right? I can still get into grad school with scores like that, right? Do I need to study? It's been so long ... but if I don't do well, I can just take it again, like the SAT? Pretty soon T will have to do all these things as well, so I should prepare myself. Though I have more time then I think because he repeated 7th grade, so even though he will be 15 in the summer, and has been doing a lot of 9th grade things because he's in the accelerated class, he is only really starting high school this fall.
I am just not going to get caught up in should I study? for the GREs and just go ahead and schedule a test time at some point over the summer. I am in fact, going to ignore all the distractions and what-should-I's and just do the practical scheduling things and THEN worry.
Speaking of beauty, on Tuesday I was next to Shalom Harlow (90s supermodel) in an exercise class and did not realize it. I just thought she was kind of pretty and a bit familiar-looking, with freakishly elongated limbs. I didn't know who she was until the instructor (a friend) texted me about it lol.