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I wish I knew how hard to push things. I'm keeping cautious, but I'm not sure if that's it. Should I? *sigh* Do I need to keep on waiting, do I need to pursue, do I need to just stop thinking about it, do I need to stop thining about her? Then again, I also feel like I'm the only one taking initiative any more. Is this right? Am I being tested to see how much I'm willing to slog through? Is that right? Would it even work out? Distance seems to be a perpetual enemy to me. I can't get rid of it. How close should we be? How close does she want me to be? I can't tell. I just have no idea where I stand with her any more. Am I being treated like a friend? Am I just asking too much? Do I push or give space? Do I act now or give time?
I don't remember being this confused before, really. Why does it have to go all wobbly shaped and explodey? I mean, why couldn't it have bene straight-forward, either way -- together or not, etc. I wish I had reasons for things and why things are going the way they are and what it means and most important what I should do.
I don't remember being this confused before, really. Why does it have to go all wobbly shaped and explodey? I mean, why couldn't it have bene straight-forward, either way -- together or not, etc. I wish I had reasons for things and why things are going the way they are and what it means and most important what I should do.