I've been nudged
I feel old.
Am I an adult? I feel like one sometimes, when I'm paying rent and the electric bill and wondering how long it's been since I've rocked a mosh pit.
But for some reason, doing dishes in 'my own place' still makes me feel like I'm playing house.
My friends are turning into adults too. They're getting engaged, and getting married, contracting the babies and buying houses. What happened to geek haus parties and pulling all nighters at perkins? I miss being 18 in the glad-I'm-not-18-anymore-but-I'm-still-kinda-nostalgic sorta way. Does that make sense? I wonder what happened to all the people I used I see. Whatever happened to Adrian and Cleo and John John and Norm? What about Andyboy? Johnny's in Georgia, Brett's in Japan, Stephanos and Cheyanne are in California and married and spawning, last I heard... Jesse's in Iraq, or maybe Afghanistan, I forget. Ragin's gone and I still miss him everyday.
Does anyone I know still go to Ground Zero? I wouldn't know, I'm too tired to dance anymore. Does Zero even exist? Did it ever? It's like a chapter in my life never existed, it must have been a dream. Or maybe a nightmare, depending on the memory.
God, I'm being morbid - I'm 23 and bemoaning my lost youth.
And then Con will come and I'll see everyone again and think that nothing has changed.
I'm in a good place now, mostly, when I'm not worrying about my company going under and laying everybody off. I'm so stupidly in love with Russ it's ridiculous - It's been 5 years, I should really be a bit more blase about him these days, but his kisses still give me butterflies.
Am I an adult? I feel like one sometimes, when I'm paying rent and the electric bill and wondering how long it's been since I've rocked a mosh pit.
But for some reason, doing dishes in 'my own place' still makes me feel like I'm playing house.
My friends are turning into adults too. They're getting engaged, and getting married, contracting the babies and buying houses. What happened to geek haus parties and pulling all nighters at perkins? I miss being 18 in the glad-I'm-not-18-anymore-but-I'm-still-kinda-nostalgic sorta way. Does that make sense? I wonder what happened to all the people I used I see. Whatever happened to Adrian and Cleo and John John and Norm? What about Andyboy? Johnny's in Georgia, Brett's in Japan, Stephanos and Cheyanne are in California and married and spawning, last I heard... Jesse's in Iraq, or maybe Afghanistan, I forget. Ragin's gone and I still miss him everyday.
Does anyone I know still go to Ground Zero? I wouldn't know, I'm too tired to dance anymore. Does Zero even exist? Did it ever? It's like a chapter in my life never existed, it must have been a dream. Or maybe a nightmare, depending on the memory.
God, I'm being morbid - I'm 23 and bemoaning my lost youth.
And then Con will come and I'll see everyone again and think that nothing has changed.
I'm in a good place now, mostly, when I'm not worrying about my company going under and laying everybody off. I'm so stupidly in love with Russ it's ridiculous - It's been 5 years, I should really be a bit more blase about him these days, but his kisses still give me butterflies.