WWWEEEELLLLLLLLLL......
anyways, so things have been pretty freakin crazy lately,
with school and classes and shit loads of homework every night, i barely get
the chance to breath. yet some how even through all the chaos i still only have
one thing on my mind. if you dont know what that one thing is then obviously
you arent in on whats hot in my life right now, and its going to stay that way.
whatever. im dramatic. i make everything a bigger deal for myself then it
really needs to be. i guess in a way im just getting kinda scared because of
the way things are going right now, my feelings may be changing, and im afraid
that once they change for good i may never get those feelings back again.
anyone who knows me knows that im definatly pro- change...yet lately im not
liking the chages that are going on....and im definatly not a big fan of the
changes that are yet to come. but change is inevidable....ill just have to bite
my lip and hold it in.....once again. i guess when it really comes down to it,
all i want is to have someone to care for and for them to care for me back.
someone that i can hug and hold and just lay on the couch and watch movies
with...someone i can sit down with and do absolutly nothing with, and still
have the best time ever. i know i know...you cant always get what you
want...but its nice to have dreams right? not when your dreams are what drag
you down...i spend more time getting my hopes up and dreaming then actually living
in reality...oh well i never said i was perfect. seems like right about now im
the farthest thing from perfect....