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Hi, I haven't written in a long time. This was all stream of consciousness, editing would simply be wrong. Just indulge me, if you don't mind.Routine and discipline, balance, everything in moderation. Our favorite maxims! I decided to give them another shot, in earnest
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well, even if what got you to write this up was not such a happy experience.. would that make it wrong of me to say that it was enjoyable for me to read?
` perhaps enjoyable because the way you write things is like music that makes me nod my head.. "you're onto something there, Kevin". i love it when film/music/writing articulates things in ways that seem to understand how i myself experience life.. .
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This was all stream of consciousness, editing would simply be wrong. Just indulge me, if you don't mind.
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so agree. you have rather expressive stream-of-consciousness writing, Kevin, if i do say so myself.. .
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Without any compelling evidence to the contrary, all of my introspection turns - like clockwork - to the most self-punishing thoughts ever. STOP.
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ugh, don't i know this.
sometimes i wonder if being introspective contemplatives in general have this problem. [except in this post you certainly have understanding that i do not have when i'm driven into self-punishing trains of thought ... almost always when my thoughts WON'T SHUT OFF along this track, it usually doesn't even occur to me to look for brakes, just in case they exist. perhaps -- unlike what an early sentence in this post suggests about you -- it's very much habit and familiar for me to indulge in my emotions.. .]
... ah. maybe i know another reason why i enjoyed this post.
it's heartening to hear the voice of another crazy introspective contemplative out there; for although (judging from what i remember from reading your posts) we're very different, i think it's safe to say that we're both strong artist types.
i've always loved the way you write, Kevin. (just trying to say that i'm glad to hear your personality back on lj again. no pressure to keep on updating, but you have at least one interested reader, if ever you do... .)
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Wow, you really did read this sucker through - I appreciate all the ways you related to this.
Hehe, there's a fine line between insightful introspection and pure crazy neuroticism. Maybe my earlier claim about not indulging myself isn't quite right. Whatever it is, at least it's not MINDLESS indulgence - I think at length the way I do because it's opened a lot of things up for me.
Of course, it's also led me through tons of paranoia and imagined situations - all of which are pretty much the WORST POSSIBLE scenario and probably not real.
If anything, I probably just make a lot of bad decisions on what to think about. : \
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