here goes nothing…
So I was looking back, and it appears I haven’t updated since about August - wow, didn’t realize it had been that long. This is going to be long and will most likely jump around a bit, so don’t get lost!
First, for posterity’s sake. November 11, 2010 we had to help Babe to the bridge. Her health declined and she was having neurological issues, so we felt it was time.
March 24, 2011 we had to help Pudge to the bridge. He crashed within 24 hours, and there was no turning back. He had adrenal, insulinoma, and lymphoma and was doing better just last week, but the vet suspected he had a large mass in his bladder and he was too unstable to operate on. Poor boy was in a lot of pain, so we knew it was time.
This of course, became an end of an era. 10 years of ferret ownership is now over. It’s very surreal, and I’m still not fully comprehending it. Every time I go in to the dining room and pass their cage, I instinctively look in it to “check” on them. It’s going to be tough to break everything down. But I did decide that I’m going to clean everything up and donate what I can to the local Humane Society. They’re always in need of things for the shelter, and I have tons of medical supplies that I’m sure they could use, not to mention the 3 story ferret nation cage which they can use for kittens/cats, rabbits, and any other small animals.
I loved the little boogers to death, and wouldn’t change the fact that I had them, but Jon & I both decided (long before this) that we can’t have any more ferrets. Too much heartbreak.
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Ok, so now on to everything else. Shoot, not even really sure where to begin! I think I shy’d away from posting because things haven’t been good, and honestly they’ve been pretty bad, and I didn’t want all of my posts to be me complaining non-stop.
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Jon missed a lot of work last year, because of his headaches, and the lack of a substantial (normal) paycheck finally caught up with us. It’s been a struggle on many levels because I have a difficult time figuring out the finances and sticking to a budget. It’s not like we’re completely destitute, we’re just not living a comfortable life, like I would like. I could make some sacrifices, like cutting off the DirecTV, but I haven’t. We don’t go out and do a lot of things, but I do watch a lot of TV. So part of it is my fault, for not cutting things that we’ve been accustomed to.
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We’ve run out of heating fuel (twice now) because we have to pre-pay in order to get a delivery. Gas prices skyrocketing has put a fill up to around $450 and we don’t have that kind of money just laying around. It’s a struggle enough to pay them $50/week, and we go through the fuel in about 5 weeks (keeping the house at 63 degrees). So we’ve brought out the space heaters, which means our electric bill will be high this month. Eh, what can you do.
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Jon’s headaches have been a lot better tho. He got a new medication a few months ago, and it seems to be helping. Now the problem comes that he can’t go back to the neurologist to get a refill, because we don’t have the money to pay the previous bill(s), and they refuse to call him back. So yeah, bit of a tricky situation.
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I’m still working 2 jobs, and don’t foresee that stopping any time in the near future. It’s really bringing me down, not being able to have a normal life. I get 1 day off a week, and really it’s not a day off because I’m completely exhausted from being up all night. I’m actually surprised I’m up now because I usually end up crashing and sleeping the day/night away.
I’m tired and all I want to do is sleep. There are some days where I’m in bed for 18+ hours. I have no motivation to do anything. The house is a mess, and we still haven’t unpacked everything from when we moved back. I do want to get the house cleaned up, but when I actually have time to do it (Sunday’s), I’m just too exhausted. I could work on it during the week, but being home alone I have no motivation because I don’t like working at it alone.
This winter has been really bad for me. My Dr. suggested years ago that I may have SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), but I hadn’t noticed any difference with my mood until this year (hence the sleeping 18+ hours, etc). That, coupled with working 2 jobs for the last 1.5 years and not having much of a social life, has taken it’s toll. The other part of the problem is that I’ve gained about 15 lbs in the last year, and I currently weigh more than I’ve ever weighed. I’m hoping that once the warm weather comes, and the sun is out longer, I’ll get motivated again. I want to start walking, and finally got my treadmill back from Dad so I can start again.
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The cats are doing fine. Sam is still being medicated for his thyroid issue, and at one point was being over medicated. We readjusted the dose and he appears to be doing much better. Goose is Goose. Crazy ass cat! I love him to pieces tho, he’s my boy.
Luey, Boo, & Peeps are all fine. It’s hard to believe that Sam is approx. 13; Luey, Boo, & Peeps are going on 9; and Goose will be 3 in June! Time is flying by.
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Alrighty, that’s all for now. I’m getting really tired, and my back is bugging me. I’ll update more later!
Originally published at www.theworldofhelen.com. You can comment here or there.