hmmm
well, i suppose this is my first real update in awhile, but thats probably because i havent felt the need to share anything with anybody, or something to that effect. things are better with katie, not great, just better. great is a level that i dont think we'll get back onto for some time unless a miracle happens. we had a long talk sunday night about everything and it was really great to get that all out in the open...but a small part of me is screaming very loudly that she doesn't quite get what I was and am trying to tell her. i guess thats life. there was a lot of stuff that needed resolution and the only thing that really got resolved was that we can spend time together and not have it be uncomfortable. this is good, because she is my favorite person to spend time. but sometimes my view of things skews situations a lot. like right now...
i really want to be home with my family, especially leah. i havent seen leah since the beginning of the summer and I wont lie, she's my favorite sister. i miss her, her humor, her intelligence, her rationale on all the stupid things i do, basically i miss her and it will be great to spend time with her and the rest of my family.
i have decided that i am not going to go to the mssm new years party. this is because, putting aside the issues that were going on with some of the people last year i didnt really have all that much fun. it was great to see everyone, but really, it wasnt that much fun. sorry mckean. but this doesnt mean i dont want to see people...i.e. meredith and justin. leave me your phone numbers so i can get in contact with you sometime during break and we can get together. shelly and i want to have a regrouping of the Crew (mere, justin, shellanor, skylar, and myself). I agree with her. lets make it happen.
i guess thats really all right now. i am sitting in my room with nothing to do feeling pretty miserable, but i guess thats been the norm for the last couple days, weeks, months....cuz i'm an idiot. anywho, later
i really want to be home with my family, especially leah. i havent seen leah since the beginning of the summer and I wont lie, she's my favorite sister. i miss her, her humor, her intelligence, her rationale on all the stupid things i do, basically i miss her and it will be great to spend time with her and the rest of my family.
i have decided that i am not going to go to the mssm new years party. this is because, putting aside the issues that were going on with some of the people last year i didnt really have all that much fun. it was great to see everyone, but really, it wasnt that much fun. sorry mckean. but this doesnt mean i dont want to see people...i.e. meredith and justin. leave me your phone numbers so i can get in contact with you sometime during break and we can get together. shelly and i want to have a regrouping of the Crew (mere, justin, shellanor, skylar, and myself). I agree with her. lets make it happen.
i guess thats really all right now. i am sitting in my room with nothing to do feeling pretty miserable, but i guess thats been the norm for the last couple days, weeks, months....cuz i'm an idiot. anywho, later