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Hmm... I don't really have anything that I want to update. I'm just really bored. I feel fat today hah. I have to go turn in my final portfolio for English... And I should write my paper for Philosophy. But I'll probably put it off til tomorrow morning. It's not due til Wednesday anyway... Of course, I'm working all day on Wednesday so I can't turn it in that day so... Tomorrow it is.
Rachel's back in town. I'm soooo happy she is back.
Things with Ryan.... don't exist. "I just want to try being friends" my ass. I will never allow that line of bullshit to be fed me to me ever again. It just makes me angry to think that he couldn't just tell me what he wanted. I had to force it out of him. Basically, I had to force him to tell me that he didn't want to be with me anymore. I asked him like 5 times before he gave me a straight answer. I wish he would have cried, or missed me, even a little bit. Am I that forgettable? Live or die, it doesn't even matter. That pisses me off more than anything. And everywhere I go, there you are, in one way or another. "Truly." Bullshit. I get pissed off just thinking about it. The other day my manager asked me if I was happy about how things ended and how I feel now and all of that stuff. It was just weird... Because I don't know. I am but I am not. It's hard to say. Agh. But the job's going well anyway. They all think I'm chipper haha. But I get paid every week there and that is super sweet because then I wont feel so totally broke all the time haha.
Rachel's back in town. I'm soooo happy she is back.
Things with Ryan.... don't exist. "I just want to try being friends" my ass. I will never allow that line of bullshit to be fed me to me ever again. It just makes me angry to think that he couldn't just tell me what he wanted. I had to force it out of him. Basically, I had to force him to tell me that he didn't want to be with me anymore. I asked him like 5 times before he gave me a straight answer. I wish he would have cried, or missed me, even a little bit. Am I that forgettable? Live or die, it doesn't even matter. That pisses me off more than anything. And everywhere I go, there you are, in one way or another. "Truly." Bullshit. I get pissed off just thinking about it. The other day my manager asked me if I was happy about how things ended and how I feel now and all of that stuff. It was just weird... Because I don't know. I am but I am not. It's hard to say. Agh. But the job's going well anyway. They all think I'm chipper haha. But I get paid every week there and that is super sweet because then I wont feel so totally broke all the time haha.